finally selfish me has participated in some noteworthy medicine activity! haha as in i dun really commit myself to some long term project esp since nus is so damn bloody far and me being uber busy and all. lol.
yup and im quite pleased with myself considering i only missed (NOT PON mind you) one rehearsal cause i overslept. and it was a sat! who wakes up before noon on a weekend? haha thats not to say im not apologetic cause i am! my perfect attendance :(
anyway thats why i rarely make commitments these days cause i feel bad if i dun give my best so i only do things that im absolutely stamp chop confirm i can do it properly :) not to trumpet myself but i really do feel that ppl just dun understand what it means to be committed cause it really defeats the purpose of having rehearsals with ppl not coming then things will not really improve will it? i mean not to forget fun and all but after all we need to present something to audience right? not exactly fair to those who show up regularly either.
on a happier and more cheerful note, playhouse was quite the experience considering that alot of ppl participated in it and i am really really proud to be in the company of smart and talented ppl
not too mention having some semblance of life outside my mugger and money-grubbing mode. haha sad but true.
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and having 3 other siblings leading a carefree life now that sch is out for them really makes me sore about my state of affairs :(
to think that i was happily gloating over the fact that i had my exam first but in the end, last to have my hols. which is not exactly meant to be hols either cause the next ca (continual assessment) is apparently 3 weeks after sch reopens?! so pretty much an extended study break :( which has to be taken seriously considering how 1) i have slacked after the previous ca so thats about 3 weeks worth of sch to catch up and webcast; and 2) how badly ive done for my ca :((( trust me im not the type of person to say ive done badly and scored Not Excellent but above average. when i say badly i mean below average. and in this case, quite below average. so bad that i haven and dun intend to tell my parents. haha oops
and i dun know if ive mentioned this before, but ive been pondering abt how un-fun medicine is cause
1) its just going to be get more difficult as one progresses
2) school work is accumulative unlike other courses which is as i see it, 'fire and forget'. i.e my bros are enjoying life now while im fretting over my holiday mugging schedule and i cant imagine at the end of med sch, i have to mug five bloody years worth of content for my final mbbs. SIGH + SOBS
3) doctors dun really earn that much in actual fact. ok let me qualify that. AVERAGE doctors dun really earn that much.
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on another depressing note, my financial state is rather like the winter season with my money tree bald and note-less :(
sad sad sad
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hmm dun know if you guys realised it yet but we are just 3 weeks to a new year. haha dun know if this is sad or happy news for you guys but well, the years do seem to pass quicker as one grows older/ages
i seem to be still stuck in nov. or oct. or sept or aug...
AHHHHH we are getting closer to 2012! haha
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