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2011-12-30T01:22:00.000-08:00

2012 is cominggggg

i dun know man. previously its all about making resolutions, change and hope for a better year but as we grow older, there's nothing much one can do about the new year, and future, for plans have already been made. or our paths is more or less determined, and fixed.

like how im actually anxious abt the first half of 2012 for there's so many things going on.

research (every sat 8 -5pm for jan and feb), sch (waking up at 0530 *GROANS*) plus tutition (cash on hand update- 1x 50 dollar note in cashbox. really. zilch in my 'ss's personal expenditure' compartment in my braun buffel wallet. *$ob$)

not to mention m.b.b.s 3.0 (ie final year exams where i have to mug for paediatrics, family medicine, general surgery, orthopaedics and general medicine)

if 2012 is really the end of the world as the mayans predicted, can it pls be like march? after i splurge my cny hong bao money. lol save me the trouble of mugging for the exams

ah ss! why so dreary!

haha damn damn damn. sch lah! cramping my style mannn

but thats the reality of life? i dun know abt other fields, but in medicine, you have to be hardworking to really be something. everyone's doing research, mugging, and doing more research. shit man its like jc intensity x 100.

and then when you become a doctor, also must pia.

so tired to just think abt it.

thus my resolution for twenty twelve is.

whatever lah. just try to survive.

and maybe fondle my itouch less.

haha cheers (:

'the days are long, and the years are short'

2011-12-19T03:31:00.000-08:00

SO my goodness, its been quite a while huh.

bo bian sch lo. haha ive crossed my halfway mark in med sch er, 6 weeks ago. wah thats fast, yet so long

i dun know about you, but i seem to have lost my sense of perspective of time. days weeks and months. even a year seem so distant...but actually, not very long?

time passes too fast.

like how my mom asked me to pluck her white hair, and to my shock, there were like so many.

ANYWAY, just to recap! ss is in his third (out of five) year of med sch, and its been pretty...smooth sailing? haha to be honest, i cant remember much le. so cant really remember the horrible bits.

then again, i think im quite adaptable? haha just bump around and act blur lo.

but yah, have been waking up like uber early at 5-ish. as a result i can no longer sleep beyond 11am during the weekend.

ikr how screwed up is that? haha

not to mention my bowel movements. but i shant go into details

have done the following postings:
i) paediatrics! babies! 'nuff said (:

ii) family medicine. treating everyone

iii) general surgery. err cant really remember much le. lol i plead waking up at 0530 everyday. but it was quite a sedate posting learning at alexandria hospital. very nice environment with very enthu tutors who spam tutorials like everyday

iv) now. orthopaedics. quite enjoyable! although my prof starts ward rounds early at 0730 (ie me needs to wake up at 0530), he blanjas kopi/milo beng after rounds. so im cool (: haha

though there's still the 'bowel still asleep --> constipated me' syndrome from waking up early

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AHHH! its the hols FINALLY! :D

am feeling so carefree and yeah, taking this break to charge up

and probably forget what ive learnt for the past two weeks of ortho lol

so many things to do so little time!

meeting up with friends and more friends!!

of course engaging in family activities

like spring cleaning.

haha happy hols!~

what dumbledore didnt say

2011-10-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

that love is like a horcrux
you give it, invest it
though in someone,
not something

if that someone treasures it,
you will be immortal

but if he/she doesnt,
a part of you will be destroyed

and boy,
will it be painful

Moat pending

2011-10-07T08:20:00.000-07:00

These walls,
i'm hoping,
are not keeping out people who want,
and are meant to be inside.

If it is,
then thank you, once more,
all you heart breakers

.
Disbelief/ Self doubt, Emo acceptance, Anger (not for long though), and Resolution
And the cycle repeats
With higher Walls

But walls can be ascended
or the bridge-door thingy can be let down

so hope ss shall
:)

its all abt perspective

2011-09-22T19:31:00.000-07:00

sooooo emo post coming right up haha

no lah, dun think it will be emo cause ss never emos in public. er except for that moment yesterday when i actually, teared during a movie screening during class.

aiyah dammit, dunnoe how to put my thoughts and feelings into words leh.

and of course, to make it sound interesting for you readers.

then again, it doesnt really matter if you guys continue to read on, cause this blog is really an open diary of sorts for ME.

so it doesnt really bother me that my blog has pathetic viewership

*sobs*

lol sorry for the preramble. warming up!

SO. ss is currently doing his family medicine posting which started of with two weeks of attachment to a gp clinic at shenton way (aka power centre of singapore), two weeks at a polyclinic, one week travelling around sg to see the various community hospitals, and this week which has been quite the emotional roller coaster for me.

why lehh

cause this week ss saw the palliative care whereby i saw patients who are dying.

no not you and me who are dying cause of sch, relationships (sigh), etc etc

but really dying dying

and what bugs me is not death, but how the process of dying can be painful

not just for the patients, but those around the patients.

including doctors

omg you cant imagine how is it for a palliative care doctor to see a fellow human being dying, and being helpless about it

but i suppose its really abt the relief of knowing that you have provided the best for the patient at his very worst.

i think i wan leh. haha first time i actually felt something about medicine.

respect lah!

hmm cant really say much abt specific instances cause that would be breaching patient confidentiality but suffice to say,

nah.

was going to say dun take your health and family and friends for granted yada yada, but no point cause one will only appreciate it really when its gone.

even for me

haha oh wells, just be happy yeah?

as ss will be if he possesses the above hello kitty water bottle. haha

NA GIVE YOU BEN 10 STICKERS DUN CRY K

2011-08-12T10:04:00.000-07:00

am finally done with 8 weeks of paeds posting. o.m.g

8 solid weeks gone. my mind is a blank now.

wow where do i even start.

tutors. for being so tolerant of us ignorant and bumbling insignificant m3 students.
ie how i actually asked an EMERITUS PROF whether he saw before pasty stools. he was momentarily stunned before saying something to the effect of 'DUH'. *shakes head* i dun know what possessed me man. and it was before the chinese 7th month

fellow group mates for being associated with a member who seems to not think before he blurts something embarrassing. then again, its probably just embarrassing for me, and entertaining for them haha so you are very much welcome

patients and their parents for being so tolerant and kind about sharing and us examining the child.

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dun really have anything else to say about nuh cause well, ive been there, and will continue going there in the future so maybe i shall just talk abt kkh

quite a cosy place. it just doesnt seem to be as hectic and fast-paced as nuh. maybe cause nuh is really a teaching hospital.

and then there's the lounge which serves good and cheap food. with voluminous sofas that i can rest my wearied body on

and the babies! got to carry a baby to sleep! first significant professional milestone i would say! (: *satisfied smile*

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but i dun know, being a pediatrician is meaningful, but i just dun see myself reaching that level of proficiency to adequately manage and care for a child. stoopid ss. haha

hopefully that will change and improve as i learn more stuff lah. but i dun seem to possess that drive to really push myself to become a specialist. and then there's the push factor that doctors that work in the hospitals seem to have looooong working hours.

haiyah, that raises the question why did i ever study medicine. i see my friends flying here there and everywhere to study, law and accounts students who will probably be as no life but earn loads more ka-ching. so i really just hope that i will find something meaningful in this profession and not give a damn about my lack of life.

checking-out

bye-bye
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yippee! two days of holidays which so happens to coincide with the weekend -.-

(and no, i still have no idea who or what Ben 10 is)

stop whining about lack of sleep and standing for like 8 hrs every day

2011-06-24T10:50:00.001-07:00

am done with my first week of clinicals ie hospital posting at nuh paeds.

NOT.

sigh. cause have to data entry the cases i have seen into word doc.

not easy leh, learning from real life cases. so many things i dun know. or forgotten

oh and also deciphering my um caligraphy-like handwriting which are written haphazardly ss style.

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i think i could get used to this way of learning. seeing real life cases of what we have read abt in the first two years of med sch. though its rather emotionally involved where cases = humans

not so much with a severely sick child but a chronically unhealthy child. with conditions like cerebral palsy or some autoimmune disorder.

and its not just for the child but also the parents. to see one's own child suffering and helpless about it. and what holds for them in the future, which is likely more suffering.

what would you do if you were the parent? the best description of this situation i can think of is 无奈

or suck thumb in english

so those of you who are healthy pls you know, love yourself and dun do stupid stuff like smoking, drinking (excessively) and taking drugs, cause good health should not be taken for granted

and yah just appreciate life more.

like not whining about lack of sleep and standing for like 8 hrs every day hur hur

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oh also, i was rather touched this morning cause my mom asked me abt how's sch cause apparently i look very emo and too quiet. usually when im emo i will sulk and shout at ppl. i guess thats cause im tired-emo not emo-emo. haha

decade ++ years worth of education... ????

2011-06-18T04:57:00.000-07:00

was giving tuition this afternoon, teaching sec 2 science - chemistry, and i suddenly felt that what i was doing was very important.

once again, my rather stunted expression skills does not allow me to describe what im really thinking/feeling.

but i think what im trying to say is, on hindsight, at the point where we are learning something, especially when we are very young, most of the time we dun really know why we are learning say maths (i still dun know why we need to learn differentiation, integration, etc)

or is it just me who just (attempts to) absorb everything like a sponge without comprehending what and why im learning? haha

like my tutee (who's like *does some mental calculation* ummm 7 years younger than me but at least 10 cm taller than me :(( ) was asking me questions abt atoms, chemical formulae, and what is its relation to chemistry, it struck me that what he's learning, and what im attempting to teach, is really the foundation of chemistry. not just the foundation of what he is going to learn for the next dunnoe how many years, but also of his understanding of E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

ie to say, really everything is made up of atoms.

once again, i still dun know why we learn maths beyond its relation to $$$ lol phail

i suppose sometimes our education system really focuses on the destination, which is to teach a syllabus within a certain time, to achieve good paper results, that we lose sight of the journey, which is really to educate our children.

and for me, education, should be the knowledge and application of the knowledge gained to understand Life.

howwww i wasted my past decade ++ of education not really understanding what im learning :( haha but not too late, i hope, cause well im still studying :)

and probably for the rest of my life as required by the career i chose :/ lol

but i thiiiink i might have found the motivation to mug. cause well, im learning stuff thats related to Life. as in really human life :)

so hopefully, i can really help my tutee understand why and what he is learning and really apply it to life and dun just mug aimlessly

be good teacher (of Life) is not easy k!

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was riding on bus 33 to my tutee's place at telok kurau, passing thru joo chiat, and i saw all the conserved shophouses with their elaborate carvings, mosaic tiles and wooden shuttles.

and suddenly i felt like being an architect so that i can build nice pretty buildings

m3. crapz

2011-06-11T00:23:00.000-07:00

so hols is coming to its will-be-very-much-lamented demise in about 1.5 days time. *sobz* haha

anyway, wow, 7 weeks just rode into the sunset ala indiana jones style. it was good while it lasted

as i tweet-exchanged with a fellow sch mate, i suppose med sch really prepares us for the working life ie no life, considering that our vacation will shorten to the extend that it is like having 14 days of annual leave. oh wells

and that we really learn how to make full use of the precious limited breaks we have now. as compared to like pri sch. which is like epic boring. but that was then lah, apparently now like the pri sch child very deprived with tuition enrichment classes and whatnot. sad lol

sian, if there was something i regretted not doing during the hols, its to finish what i set out to do, or watch rather.

I HAVENT COMPLETED WATCHING STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN :((( haha stupid lahh take bloody long to load, and i seriously dun have the patience to wait. siggh

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scary lehh m3

was reading the 'Phase III Clinical Posting Manual, Medicine'

and i just died skimming thru what is expected of us in m3

basically cannot play play liao loh

sigh

growing up sucks haha

but shall try my best!

cake cake cake cake cake!

2011-05-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

just wanted to have a post to remember my twenty first which turned out to be awesome beyond my rather limited expectations =)

and remember my friends and family who made it such a memorable one!

in chronological order,

4th may (aka last day of my second decade of life)

@eileen's! haha it was supposed to be a belated bd surprise for her and apparently a (not so surprise) bd surprise for me too lol

05v14-med bd club

@old airport road food centre
THIS was a surprise. haha

(= my awesome and very tolerant cg mates who have endured one month, and many many more months of anticSS =)

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5th may (D day!)

courtesy of milton & eugene (gv $7.5 movie club) & junjie, xue jun, jie hui!

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7th may ( 2 days after D day cause cake was ordered late haha)

haha my mom took one. must be v emotional for her to see her brood of children 3/4 grown up (ps: my younger sis not 21 yet)

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annnnnnndddd

30th may (2nd last day of may! haha)

vj rojak! haha. all very busy ppl one kays, wearing so formalz

谢谢大家！ :D

good ol', and new days

2011-05-28T04:47:00.000-07:00

first day of work

and so four weeks of relief teaching at vjc just flashed past too quickly.

first week was familiarizing myself with my work. so that meant 4 days of slacking (monday was labour day) haha. and getting to know my colleagues, fellow relief-ers. thought that everyone was quite serious, well boring. i suppose everyone thought the same of me too. i mean, medical student, must be serious and serious-er right.

so totally un-true haha

and i think it was day 2 that i was issued a laptop. maybe thats why my time at vj passed a bit faster, with fb-ing, twitter-ing, and youtube-ing when i was free. which was most of the time.

lets see if i can recall correctly.

mon- 1x tutorial
tues- 2x practical + 1 x tutorial
wed- 1x lecture
thurs- 2x tutorial + 1x ip class
fri- 1x lecture + 1x ip class

i just luurrve wed cause work un-officially ends at 1025 after the lecture. awesome eh? haha. ok but i also got do sai gang one k. just not so much :)

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work just got much funner after everyone started to get comfortable with another ie me revealing my, as my co-worker puts it, kuku-ness siggh. im already missing everyone =((

and you know what makes office fun and funner? scandals! haha totally, i got paired up with this other girl and omg, we had such a great time. i suppose one must pity and hope the girl who got paired up with me is not damaged in any way being associated with mr goh (me) haha but for the record, miss teo and mr goh is NOT an item. miss teo, dun too sad k? hahaha

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ok enough abt work.

it was quite, i dun really know how to describe it, cause i haven really been back to vj since i graduated back in 2009, so thats 2 years of non-association with vj. nice lah, it was really nice to revisit vj.

though it was as a relief teacher so that meant 'going behind the scenes' into the staffroom. quite cosy wohs. haha free green tea and coffee and snacks!

but yeah, attending lectures (paying attention not required :P), seeing everyone in the vj uniform, eating at the canteen, attending assembly, singing the vj anthem. basically re-living the jc student life. though as an observer. but thats enough =)

ah, and the tree house!

damn happy that it opened on the last week of work!

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but as a teacher, there's this new perspective that was interesting, different.

well for starters, you are at the front of the class instead of being seated facing the teacher. and seeing a lot of stoned faces. haha. expression-less, maybe sometimes 'i-catch-no-ball, HUH, what talking you' looks. haha. otherwise,its really quite exasperating to try to elicit a response, to the extent that any response is very much welcome. silence is such a scary sound.

oh thats for the jc class lah. ip class cant get them to shut up. lol. very inquisitive leh, i dun like. i prefer i say, you take it as gospel. hahaha

not to mention how times have changed. ie students playing iphone. like last time at most just sms only can. haha

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and 4 weeks passed before i knew it. just. like. that.

just right lah, not too long. otherwise i would be too shag for sch.

awesome time it was nevertheless and i really am grateful for having awesome tolerant and fun colleagues, friends =D

miss 'kpmg scholar' teo liang
miss 'love-bread-ttm/ talk-to-me-you-die' guo liang
miss 'tonite' charmian chong
mr 'moneyplant-is-my-world' chew tian wei
miss 'lemon-tea/so-husky-till-no-voice' shona loong
miss 'FOOD SCIENCE' amanda ang
mr 'chubbs' leong chun kiat
mr fellow goh, derek

but quite sad that you meet fun people and everyone goes their separate ways eventually.

classmates, army, colleagues.

thank Mark for facebook haha

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=)

Mr Goh signing out~

post #201

2011-05-16T20:28:00.000-07:00

hm. dunnoe leh, after the previous post ie #200, i sort of dun really feel the urge to blog. its like a mid-life crisis. not exactly re-evaluating my purpose in life, but rather purpose to blog.

esp when it seems like nobody reads it. maybe its time to take it private. haha.

but cant lah. ss needs to vent. and venting only works if there's an audience. though the audience aint exactly large here

sigh

what should i blog abt to make things more interesting? tone? seems like im still quite immature in my er presentation. twenty one le lehs. but frankly, i dun feel any change. haha age is just a number. at least before you really become old and cranky and tired.

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so *looks at calendar* 3 weeks of hols has passed. wow thats fast. haha. must be cause of work.

YEH. SS IS BACK IN VJ! haha as bio relief teacher.

nothing much has changed lah. except that it seems like kids these days are much taller. lol.

anyway, quite awesome to 'go behind the scenes' into the staffroom. but this aint the time to blog abt it. shall do so when my relief stint ends. in one + more week :(

but yeah, im definitely enjoying it :)

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still, i cant help feeling envious/sore abt ppl travelling here, there and everywhere. i mean, im enjoying work and all but holiday-ing elsewhere definitely beats enjoying work? haha

bo bian lah, got to earn $$.

esp when i have this innate tendency to stumble upon a good deal unwittingly and you know how i just cant resist nice clothes that are on sale. haha

like how sunday was just supposed to be a straightforward movie outing to plaza sing but i was early and others were late so i went window shopping. and i came across this striped blue shirt at springfield that was ralph-lauren-ish @ $49 (from $79). was really thinking hard abt it, but when i saw there was just one new piece left, i just grabbed and Nets it.lol

sigh. buying shirts just reminds me how short my arms are. cause the shoulder fits but the sleeves are like an inch too long :(

bo bian roll up sleeves loh haha sg is too hot anyway

ok happy vesak day!

Twenty plus One

2011-05-05T08:25:00.000-07:00

Coincidentally this is also my 200th post. Actually not coincidence cause i have been planning to coincide this milestone post with my...er, transition from small boy to (still physically small) Young Man haha

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Had an awesome premature surprise 21st gathering yesterday by my sch mates. Wonderful prezzies!!! Like HARD TRUTH BY MM LEE! Started reading it today and omg just reinforced my respect for him. Was like 'omg so true' ttm and my heart was like brimming with sense of awesome-ness for MM haha

Everybody who supports the opposition should read it! Basically MM isn't really against opposition, but rather incompetent opposition yup

So I'm pro-competent and it so happens that PAP is more competent so... Yah that's where my allegiance lie haha

Omg need to go out le, hopefully can finish and post this before midnight!

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Ok imma back!

Was thinking on the train ride back that birthday is not just a celebration of one's wailing and bloody introduction into the world but more of a reminder and celebration of one's existence in the world. And i guess it's sort of accumulative? As we make more awesome friends who really make you feel awesome in turn. Though only on an one day per annum occurrence haha but I suppose it makes this reminder and celebration more precious. Humans take things for granted so yeah once a year is just right haha

Hmm i dun feel any different leh. Maybe just fatter from the cakes haha

THANKS EVERIBUDI FOR YOUR WELL WISHES :)

PAP BOLEH haha sorry just couldn't resist :p

may day special (yes the month of May is upon us)

2011-05-01T11:00:00.000-07:00

SO one week of sch hols has come and gone. Just like how April came and gone. Ditto that for march feb and jan lol

Hmm quite fun lahh met up with friends slacked fb spammage etc etc

Oh and all lightning being thrown here there and everywhere by PAP. haha ok enough of politics cause apparently ppl are starting to overdoes on all the elections related live feeds on fb and twitter.

Hm went clubbing FINALLY haha
SO how was it?

LOUD. and definitely not my type of music :/
And I think sign language would be helpful cause one has to shout in close proximity in order to communicate

And I can't dance so really nothing much to do lehh haha actually from what I see there isn't much dancing, just weird movements lol

I might have an adequate level of tolerance for alcohol cause I downed a shot and... Nothing happened lol and not say very nice to drink too. I prefer champagne haha but I only drank or rather sipped one glass of champagne cause it was someone's treat and not very nice to take advantage yeah? :) and momma say not to drink too haha

Yeah dun think I will go clubbing unless it's free entry plus with good friends. Who drive haha

I'm such a cheapskate :/

Hmm my days in the 20 years old club is numbered :(

how ss sees it

2011-04-29T01:05:00.000-07:00

SO suddenly whole of singapore gone gaga over The Opposition. its just like bieber fever im telling you. haha

anyway, i wasnt really planning on blogging abt Politics, especially since there's so much coverage here (Straits Times) there (facebook) and everywhere (twitter). BUT i just couldnt take it lying down how EVERYONE is like slamming PAP. ok not everyone, but like alot of young ppl.

im not saying PAP doesnt have its faults. like i admit PAP might be a bit out of touch of the ground like the rising cost of living and stuff, but well, they gave us $. like i received $400. hmm, and i dun really feel affected by the rising cost of living? like what? haha canteen food still same price? transport er, they din hike right? at least not yet haha

then there's another thing abt how the mainstream media is pro-pap. duh. the majority of sg is pro-pap what. they do cover what the opposition says right?

hmm what other gripes do the anti-pap/pro-opposition have. let me seeeee...

ok maybe the preferential treatment for wards who vote for pap. erm, i myself, would give preferential treatment to my supporters. haha. i mean, why would you condone someone who doesnt support you? no make sense lehh. then your supporters support you for what? true lah the opposition wards citiznes still pay taxes but i think the average singaporean dun pay THAT much tax. surely they receive back what they pay in taxes in the form of say tuition fee grants for their children etc etc?

ANYWAY, my point is nitpicking is ENDLESS. and so far, PAP has been doing ALL the work so we can only judge what PAP has been doing. can the opposition do what they say PAP hasnt been doing well? even if they improve on what PAP hasnt been doing well, will something else be sacrificed? say foreign talent leave singapore if the income taxes are raised? repercussions?

oh and talk is cheap. and i see how the opposition candidates get all emotional and stuff while rallying the people, and it really worries me cause when ppl get emotional, they are not rational.

its really a matter of Benefits VS Costs? and who to determine what are the benefits and what are the costs. does the ppl really know what they want? or does the PAP really know whats best for us?

BUT what i hope everyone will do is to BE NICE. like i was at the Worker's Party Rally at serangoon stadium yesterday and there was this cockster who exclaimed *F*** PAP*

seriously.

true PAP may have some faults but we are where we are now cause of PAP. at least show them some appreciation right.

ok enough rambling.

FINAL POINT- idk, maybe its a youth thing to be anti-establishment but i just hope that everyone just pause, and think abt what we have now. education system. clean streets. nice buildings. etc etc. everyone has their faults. just try to be rational k.

suddenly, cooling day before polling day makes sense.

where is my bunny

2011-04-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

haha special Easter Day special!

was jio-ed by friend of mine to a *Easter Special* Church service today

hmm. quite the eye opener haha.

i had to tell mommy a lie though. cause i dun think she can deal with me going to a Church. sorry! lol

anyway, i had always thought that church service was boring, set in well, a church (building) with rows and rows of benches, pastor wearing pastor attire, church go-ers wearing their Sunday church attire (formal) and preaching.

well, that was definitely not the case today. if i had to describe it in a word, it would be 'sleek' haha

it was like a concert lah! everything was very smooth and if it was a movie, i would give it x2 thumbs up for editing, directing and scriptwriting haha. thats the overalll feel lah.

in terms of the content, it was quite heartfelt too. yup.

its really amazing to feel hmmm, how do i describe it, its as if everyone's pulse is beating at the same time and there was just this energy that i cant reaally describe. faith and belief in Someone that brings everyone together? haha im not really familiar with Religion so im just describing it as how i felt it

i was definitely touched by what i experienced. but thats not to say im going to convert or anything. cause really, im fine with my status quo

which is 对得起自己. haha simple eh?

(er for the non chinese, it means 'to do Just to oneself'. literal translation lah.)

idk, i just feel that its already quite hard trying to live my own life, so why try to live according to what The Book says? i mean, i know The Book may be able to give you a direction and all, but as what i always say, Theory =/= Practical. if one is able to learn then apply then very good lah but The Book like quite thick and idk, non-specific/vague?

im not trying to discredit or belittle anything, just that i feel that for me, so far, im able to figure and work things out myself yup hopefully my sea will still be as calm and not turn into a freak storm or anything!

yup so i just try to do the right things and not harm anybody while going abt my business. should be fine right? can get into Heaven? haha.

but seriously, i just feel that even if i do not get into Heaven, as long as i live happily while im alive, im satisfied le. i mean, to do the Right things, and get into Heaven, but if you are not happy doing the Right things, is there a point in getting into Heaven?

thats not to say being happy means doing bad and evil things. lol. just that some of the Right things may not make one happy. aiyah, so complicated. Religion. haha

yup. and i found out that Easter Sunday has NOTHING to do with Easter Bunny and Eggs too. come to think of it, why was a bunny ever associated with chocolate eggs? lol to appeal to the kids i guess. just like with Santa Claus and Tooth Fairy.

adults are such liars. lol

imma retard

2011-04-23T09:47:00.001-07:00

so the past 4 weeks made me realise how i may not be ready for society. or rather, the society may not be ready for me. haha

i dun know, cause im not serious enough? esp for working in a hospital setting. like im apparently uncomfortable with awkward situations. and i will emit awkward laughter. or Inappropriate Laughing Syndrome. hur hur

lol. also, i have this tendency to do stupid things. as if my frontal lobe (which is supposed to inhibit socially retarded actions) is non-existent/un-developed. ie there was this med entrance interview being held nearby and i JOKINGLY branded my name tag while walking towards the med aspirees. and i realised belatedly how idiotic that was. haha. luckily my group mates held me back. BUT I FEEL BAD AFTER THAT KKKK :(((

fail lah. how like that. i scared i cock up and get kicked out of med sch D: haha, shall think before i say and do anything. try! pls slam my brachial plexus or smt when im up to no good pls group mates! *WHACKS* lol

anyway, the past 4 weeks was quite fun and i think it was largely due to our chillax posting and awesomely non-uptight group mates. hahaha i just lurrrve our extended air-conditioned lunch break. but thats not to say we slack ttm lah, we know how to work hard too eh! hmm yah, basically its quite tricky to balance work-play and co-workers-friends too. hope we are doing alright?

ok, nuff abt work and sch...CAUSE ITS HOLS LEs!!! haha i sort of had a preview yesterday cause i went to my friend's YANNI 21st bd party! so funnnn

hmmm, just hope that the rest of my hols will be fine and not borinnnng :/

here's to happy hols! :)

Dreams

2011-04-16T05:38:00.000-07:00

sigh. there are two types of dreams.

type 1 dream is the kind that one has when one sleeps. you know, where things that can (almost) never happen in real life happens. like you meet a damn hot chio bu, or become the president. erm actually, thats rather possible. haha, ok, fly. now thats confirm impossible. what im trying to say is type 1 dream are dreams that are almost impossible to realise in real life.

on the other hand, there is type 2 dream. dream that one has when one's awake and lucid. possible yet impossible.

made impossible by the realities of life.

like how my sister really wants to study business tourism at ntu but my mom and dad REALLY REALLY REALLY wants her to study law at nus.

i mean, true lah, having a law degree translates to more $$$, which is apparently the most impt ingredient to succeed in life. but already my sis is damn unhappy when she thinks abt reading law. how to survive 4 years of studying law? and if she really does get the degree, will she be happy practicing law? probably not.

unless $ = :)

i dun think so loh. and my mom is like displeased at me for not encouraging her to take up law.

i dun think i can shoulder the unhappiness and regret my sis will experience if she really does get into law.

so my official stand is neutral/ sit on the fence/ act blur/ dao

but if you are reading this dear sis, which i dun think you are haha, im rooting for you k :)

just chase your dream, do what you want and most importantly, live happily without regrets

yup.

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stupid lighting shock circuited my entire house and zapped my modem to death. felt constipated for the past 2 days. luckily my father and bro called up starhub and replaced the modem :)))

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one more week of csfc! sigh time to chiong

but hols after that! :D

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and im already getting fatigued from all the pre-election spammage coverage when date of election HAVENT even been announced -.-

breathe leg+feet, breathe!

2011-04-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

oh my, been wearing grown up shoes and long pants for 5 days. my lower leg plus feet feels damn cooped up haha. uber liberating to wear flip flops and shorts finally

anyway, my shin feels damn zeng after everyday cause my shoes have rather tall heels. like 5 cm? haha

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more updates on week 2 of CSFC!

my group was quite chill throughout the week except for 2 rather intense afternoons. hmm i cant decide whether its good or bad, good because we dun burn out since its quite chill but bad cause we are actually behind schedule with regards to the topics we have to master by the end of the course.

but bo bian leh, our dr tutors like uber busy so cant teach us. like one of our tutor went switzerland! and another one is going overseas too.

hmmm, wonder if our tutor will get chocolates for my group....

anyway, when i said chill, its actually not THAT chill. just chill relative to our counterparts in the other hospitals who apparently have like tutorials everyday throughout the week. cause even though my group's tutorials are in the afternoon, my group still comes at 0830 for self-learning :)

though we literally chill at cool places after our lunch. you know, to avoid the much dreaded burnt out sydrome :) hahaha

So we roam the corridors when we have no tutorials.

Literally cause we are very selective with our subjects. Criteria: friendly, relatively healthy, eng/mandarin speaking
And not a lot of ppl that reside in hospitals fulfill these criteria- healthy and happy ppl are a scarce commodity in hospitals

so must be more thick skinned and ka-chao less healthy patients :/

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Results out on tues!

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*GASP* halfway thru CSFC!!! :O

GTM / The blogging must go on

2011-04-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

whew. finally the week is drawing to a close.

haha the past five days were shag but fun lah.

definitely not like sch- i miss being spoon fed. and sitting in an air-conditioned LT for the whole day.

yeah, being a doctor is not as glam as gray's anatomy or house. i think the main reason is cause govt hospitals are not airconditioned -.- haha DAMN HOT CAN. to think i have been stocking up on nice long sleeved shirt since i entered med sch and yup din take into account sg's all-too-sunny weather. PLUS have to wear white coat too. for med students lah. so all the doctor under dr house actually dun need to wear one. for show nia. lol

hm. yeah basically like working-cum-studying?

actually no. not working. cause 1) where got people pay sch fees to work one. haha

and 2) we arent really treating patients or anything. haha more of disturbing them

i dun know lah. just feels that im working. maybe because its all output and no input ie spoon feeding. like we have to go around finding patients to disturb. basically self initiated learning.

i wun say not my style cause its really idk, empowering to go about learning and doing things by yourself. just that need some getting used to?

oh yah, to any average singaporeans out there, just a er, friendly shoutout that there will be medical students swarming in govt hospitals throughout the island so be warned. lol. esp 3 weeks from now cause our exam is on the 23rd april, so the week before that, frentic students will be scouring the wards for patients to examine. haha dun say i din warn you.

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i suppose though i find it very shaggifying, im not resentful or anything cause subconsciously i find what i do really relevant. like applying what i have actually studied. that is if i still remember what i studied for the past 2 years.

thats one of the main reasons why i wanted to study medicine. yup

just that i feel uber pek chek when i wake up every morning. haha but hopefully its just because of the one week break prior to this week.

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so whats up with GTM (finally haha)

basically its this philosophy that has been coined by someone i know after going thru NS.

it stands for Go Through Motion. i dun really know the intricate philosophy behind it but if one is to take it literally, it really explains what im learning now, which is pretty much practicing the various steps in the various physical examinations.

practice practice practice

but there's a subtle difference. that is GTM + feeling. like ensuring patient comfort at all times. yup :)

i mean got some young punks wearing white coats poking and molesting you, so the least we can do is to make sure you are comfortable right? haha

but seriously, i feel bad disturbing someone who's not feeling well but the thing is its precisely cause they are unwell that there's something we can learn from.

oh wells.

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and finally, yeah, this post might not be exactly interesting entertaining and all, but i dun really have the time to jot down my experience in a journal so i guess this is sort of a journal of what im experiencing now

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three more weeks of sweating and wearing Grown-Up Clothes!

IN YOUR FACE LEONARD TANG YEW LEONG

2011-03-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

haha congrats leonard for being the first person featured in my title.

why so leh? cause if you havent noticed, Yours Truly have been bloggin for the past NINE CONSECUTIVE DAYS. epic. er. a bit overkill too i admit. haha. challenge mahs. cause on the last day of pro i.e last last fri, leonard and i were talking abt my blog and he said something about me blogging for every day of the one week break.

my initial response was 'siao ar, you think blogging so easy one meh, need to plan one leh'

but apparently i had so much time that i managed to plan and type out a post for every day. haha. hope its not too forced though :/

er ok. wait let me think of what to blog about hahaha...

oh yes, that means that ss has no life to have so much time to blog everyday :(

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HMMMMM

yah sch is starting tomorrow :(( so many things to do

like trim my nails, pack my school bag with whitecoat, name tag, stethoscope (???)

and maybe read a bit more of the clinical textbook SIGHHHH

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back to my blog.

according to norman (hi you reading this?) my english is worse than xiaxue :(

but i dun care cause its ME! hahaha

i dun know lah, i guess i really write according to how i talk? informal? more personal? haha. my english isnt really that good anyway. like how i never write descriptive/narrative essays cause i simply cant write properly / BOMBASTICALLY.

besides, it would be too formal and boring. and you know fickle and anal readers (yes you norman lol!) are. too informal then english worse than xiaxue. too formal then boring.

so hard to feel appreciated these days. yours truly providing FOC (free of charge) entertainment leh. hahaha ok ok enough ranting

just send me some love once in a while k? for e.g like this blog update when it appears on my fb update.

and who knows, i may be keeping track of who likes my posts and dedicate a post just for you. YES YOU! haha

ok busy day so guess thats it for
****** SS'S NINE DAYS BLOG SPECIAL ******

cheers :)

Circular vibrating motion/ 41 cents to Orchard

2011-03-25T05:29:00.000-07:00

No I'm not referring to a dildo *coughs* but a toothbrush. Though a toothbrush can be a *coughs*... I digress haha

anyway finally went to the dentist at nus yesterday cause its apparently cheaper for students. wah damn booked man like i booked on tues, fri MORNING then got slot. or is it the case for every dentist? if thats the case then i should have become a dentist le. hmm. not really lah. haha, thats just the inner wallet of me speaking. not my heart :)

yah! Dental clinics should provide morning wake up call service for first patient of the day! its like my appointment is at 0930. who wakes up at 0930 when they are holiday-ing? NOBODY hahaha. i set my alarm at 0745 but overslept till 0830. had to chiong manz, just brushed my teeth and rushed out of the house. no breakfast :(

hahaha and on the train to nus, there was this two women who were at the entrance of the carriage and they were too lazy to move their ass out when ppl needed to exit (cause the train was rather packed) WHILE the ever so nice ss politely moved out and back in everytime the train docked at the station. so you know me, being non-judgemental and all, was plugged into my ipod looking around, then i saw this indian dude behind me shaking his head at the the girls. LOL. quite funny to see a Judgement-In-Progress.

so back to dentist. yah so i was late by abt 10 mins. im sorry :/ but according to the dentist my teeth was alright so just had scaling and polishing done.

i nearly drowned on my saliva though cause i was afraid to swallow my saliva and the suction thingy wasnt placed at the correct site or i was salivating like a dog. haha

oh and the dr used a salt thingy thing (haha sorry i dun know what to call it) for polishing my teeth and it was like a sand storm man. all the specks of salt (NOT MY SALIVA haha) flying EVERYWHERE. eeyer

oh and either i was very sleepy or the treatment chair is damn comfy but i was like yawning on it before the dentist came over. zzz

so dental checkup completed and i paid 50 dollars for it. but before i left the receptionist gave me 'de-brief. like how you have to brush your teeth in a Circular vibrating motion. i tried last night but i) my mouth is not that big for the circular motion and ii) how are you supposed to vibrate your toothbrush!? haha

oh and when the lady asked how often i flossed, i replied once a week and her eyes just BULGED. lol. apparently you are supposed to floss DAILY. my goodness that would mean less fb-ing man :( haha

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moving on to the second part of the (yester)day!

so after my checkup i went to frontier aka nus science canteen for brunch and tau-pau-ed lunch for my mom. and then it was the hour long ride back home in 197.

after delivering the lunch special, i was off to orchard! haha. was thinking of taking a nap before setting off but GOT TRANSFER! haha so i only spent 41 cents for the journey to orchard :)

my original intention was just to get an analogue watch for my clinicals cause though i have like digital watches at home, i cant use digital watch to time myself while counting someone's pulse rate. its like looking at the seconds will screw up my count :/

yah lah, excuse to buy new watch too. haha but seriously, i dun wear watch one so it is NOT an excuse to get a new watch!

so i started at ion, nearly bought a dark green chinos pants from uniqlo but LUCKILY no correct size otherwise i will really feel guilty about spending so much money. hmmm but ive got no green pants....

anyway, then i proceeded to isetan, where i saw this pair of handsome business shoes on offer. like from 169.9 --> 79.9. thats like close to half off lehs. haha so i bought it. EH not anyhow buy k, cause my previous pair is from bata and you know what ppl say abt bata shoes. Buy-And-Throw-Away. B-A-T-A. haha ok lah, but the new shoes is like dark brown while the bata shoe is black so can wear both :)

my toes just wiggled in anticipation of wearing it on mon. lol

ok long story short i bought a swatch watch for 82 dollars

but not after checking out the swatch outlet at tangs, taka and heeren.

and finally, a dark brown GENUINE leather belt from uniqlo for 29.9 cause my dark brown NON-GENUINE leather belt that i bought from gio-bloody-darno cui-ed after just a year

yup so went to dbs at plaza sing to change my bank book cause the my first ever bank book finally reached the end of its pages.

tired tired tired man. haha

oh before i end off, they raised the height of orchard road!

a bit weird right, cause wun the water now pool at the pavement instead? and the pavement is like just beside the shopping centres leh. hmmmmm

My right boob got cooked/ The Healthier Choice

2011-03-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

no, my right boob is not the healthier choice.

sigh someone said my chest is not chest but breasts :(
i cant help it that im well endowed right. lol er ok enough. shall refer to it henceforth with its correct term which is PECTORALIS or PECS

so YES. why would my right PECS get cooked?

cause my awesome og had an AWESUM gathering last night! with BBQ! and you know how i dun trust others to prepare my food when it comes to bbq so i had to roll up my non-literal sleeves and get sunburnt but without the sun (i.e just burnt) lol. and my right PECS was closer to the crackling glowing charcoal. hence the first part of my title.

on a somewhat related note, it was scorching hot yesterday. and today.

anyway, why healthier choice then?

cause i had an EUREKA moment yesterday while bbq-ing chicken wings.

you know how your bbq chicken wings look damn cooked, so cooked that its chao tah-ed on the outside, but somehow the meat is still rare?

well, ss knows how to avoid that! and therefore, the terrible terrible cancer too!

simply just lay a sheet of aluminum foil over the grill and thats it! yes, go on smack your forehead for not thinking abt doing this. haha.

but seriously, the chicken will be well done and without the cancer-causing burnt bits

and you can also pour some beer over the aluminum foil :) *sizzles*

*cooking in progress*

and thats a thousand words describing how oishi and (relatively) healthy my wings are (i.e picture says a thousand words, understand???)

oh yah, applicable for satay too :)

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and there's a second part for a Healthy gathering. ESPECIALLY after a bbq.

BRING ON THE KINECT!

damn xiong manz. even for non-participants. can get abs from all the laughing. lol

anyway, after this gathering, ss has managed to distill the essence of an AWESUM POSSUM GATHERING

#1) thicken your skin and ask someone who lives somewhat near you who's going to give you a ride. preferably for return journey too :) [thanks leonard!]

#2) dun go at stated time. go slightly later. haha cause president's scout need to start the fire mahs

#3) oh make sure have gps or iphone with 3g to make sure you dun die of hunger during the jounney if you hollan (army slang for lost)

#4)ALUMINUM FOIL. duh

#5) be thickskin (aka charlene tang) and request for stingrays hahahaha

#6) KINECT! and designated photographer/videographer to record hilarious og moments

#7) proper shoewear. my right knee felt sore from all the static running and jumping

#8) very obliging parents (thanks mr and mrs yeow, aka mark's (aka og ic) parents :))

and finally

#9) OSIM uDivine for rapid recovery LOL

oh and i suppose i have to credit my co-chef benjamin seah for our aluminum foil discovery + sean for lugging his xbox and kinect!

also, THANKS A BUNCH TO MARK FOR BEING SO NICE AND ONZ

and here's to a SMASHING OG GATHERING!

cheers!

sigh, my sentiments exactly

2011-03-23T21:00:00.000-07:00

yes i finally started reading for my Clinical Skills Foundation Course last night. i was reading at my kitchen table (which ironically we dun eat at cause its in the kitchen. the kitchen has no tv. haha) then my brother walked past and said, wah studying again already?

sigh. and to think come this sat, it will be four weeks before the next examination AGAIN

on a more cheerful note, dun you just think that my book protectors are AWESUM?! hmmm, i might need to get a book protector protector to preserve my awesome covers haha

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i hate pimples :C

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oh! and i single-handedly fixed my router/ wifi-enabled my house on the first try! my brotherS took like dunno how long k! noobs. lol

now the router and modem are the best of friends :))

'what do you want to specialise in'

2011-03-23T00:22:00.000-07:00

if i received a dollar each time someone asks me this qn i would er still not become a millionaire. haha

hm, i cant help but feel as if i blogged on this before. maybe not an entire post but mention in passing.

anyway, perhaps it would be easier to sketch out my curriculum before i elaborate on what i would like to specialise in

basically my course is 5 years. first year is learning about the normal human body (musculoskeletal, nerves, organs and the various systems like the cardiovascular, respiratory system). second year involves learning whats are the things that can go wrong with our body (ie cancer). and forgetting what i learnt in year one.

third to fifth year involves doing stints in the various hospitals to pick up the necessary skills like taking history, performing physical examinations and basically applying the theory stuff we learn during the first two years.

so my response to the above qn is
i have no idea

partly cause its a bitch to just cope with my basic degree and i dun really know what i want yet cause i dun know what does the various disciplines involve.

then again, im quite certain that i dun want to do like advance surgery stuff cause frankly i cant deal with having someone's life on my hands. like i will seriously doubt myself if someone was to die cause of some epic cockup

also, i want to cruise. haha like definitely not something like working in the accident and emergency department. something not that challenging.

but not something as chillax as a gp cause well, it doesnt seem that interesting.

unless i set up my own gp chain, then thats another matter altogether $.$

hm. i hope to do something happy. like delivering babies :) but not pediatrician cause that would involve enduring extended periods of crying babies and dealing with sick children :/ and picking up a third language - baby language

one also has to consider the competition, ie about half of the cohort specialises while the other half become gp. so far im hovering at the halfway mark...

hmmm so much crap to just to answer a simple question right

so my final answer is

i dun know *shrugs*

Handwriting

2011-03-21T23:12:00.000-07:00

you know what they say about doctor's handwriting? that they are not really handwriting but calligraphy? haha true and false.

like of course its simply not feasible to write illegibly during your exams cause by Darwin's Theories of Evolution you will not survive and be eliminated from the race.

other than that, as long as you write something you yourself are able to decipher then its good enough. i mean, no one will ask you for your notes so all the better, all the good things are for yourself. assuming someone actually asks for your notes lah. cause no one asks for mine cause 1) they will be asking for a migraine trying to decipher my handwriting or 2)my not-so-insightful notes are not worth the effort and pain or 3) ive got no notes at all. as in really din take down notes. not have notes but selfish dun share. seriously. im very friendly onez k haha

anyway, was inspired to blog about this topic cause i saw one such fb photo which had multiple pens and highlighters of various colours AND DAMN CHIO handwriting. lol

so here goes several levels of my handwriting

first level is the encoding/storage stage where i write legibly so that i can remember and store the knowledge into my brain.
note: i say legibly and NOT beautifully. so i know my handwriting though legible is fugly. hahaha sorry im not anal k. dun need everything to be swee swee, heart instead of the dot above the i etc etc. its practical and NON-PRETENTIOUS to have un-nice handwriting lol

thats not to say ppl with nice handwritings are pretentious. so pls dun misunderstand! i like looking at nice handwritings. lol very pretty and readable.

second level is when im retrieiving the info like when im trying to recall

still rather legible cause i need to see and check if i recalled correctly.
oh yah, dun try to hard to decipher k, im not going to be responsible if you start experiencing a migraine or go into violent seizures hahahaha

and third stage is when im trying to recall again, but really just verbal diarrhea ie trial run letting the info flow out. erm. dun really have to read to see if ive missed anything cause too late for further encoding haha

yes its still in english if you are wondering. haha

anyway, its really cool cause i actually finished using one notebook for scribbling during my revision! :D

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hmm i think this break may not be mug-free after all cause i might have to start reading up for my next phase of skills training which starts next week. siggghhh

PS: i noticed that my handwriting/calligraphy is really really ugly here. er its not THAT ugly k. haha partly due to my 2.0 mp hp camera k. so must account for that too.
YOU! dun judge. lol

my slippers bit me :(

2011-03-20T09:53:00.000-07:00

everytime i get a new pair of slippers/ flip flops, they will give me painful love bites.

apparently you have to bite your slippers before you wear them for the first time.

i think it works the same way for a marriage too. like you have to step on your partner's feet while ahem-ing for the first time. otherwise you will be hen/cock-pecked hahahaha. then again, in this day and age where MOST ppl ahem before their marriage, does it still apply? as in whats considered as the first time? the first time they do it with the person they will eventually marry PRE-marriage or it only counts on the first time they do it on their marriage night. i wonder wonder wonder

anyway, this post CA... sorry is post MB,.BS Professional Exams 2.0 weekend was quite awesome. awesome sat trip to MBS. followed by a long overdue MAHJONG SESSION!!! woooohhoooo hahaha

i din really win much lah, but at least i din lose. good enough. haha cause i always lose. besides, i had a total ownage combo that sort of pulled me into the positive black territory.

ok cant post this yet cause my handphone died and i couldnt snap a photo of my awesome combo. haha too baad.

then again you wun know what you missed. so it doesnt matter.

life's that way in that aspect. something like how the grass is always greener on the other side.

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ok photo's in the mail and ive added in some illustrations on how awesome my combo is :D

ss got no monday blues~ :DD

sat morning sun is shining

2011-03-19T08:31:00.001-07:00

and so ss uncharacteristically woke up before noon today cause my cousin from indonesia was residing in marina bay sands so went there to look see look see. haha. and for free breakfast :) like x 5 rounds hahaha

first course was continental

second course was scarmbled egg with some bits of bacon from first course

third course was three different types of cereals mixed together + apricot bits + full cream milk

fourth course porridge

then break for interlude. haha so had cappuccino

finally for finale, ss had 'rabbit' food

yum yum :)

ok im quite tired now. had only 5+ hours of sleep. sian face is degen-ing

anyway lucky me made $95 dollars today cause i took part in a research survey which involved 3 vials of my precious blood ( i still cant believe that they took X 3 vials. the lady was like replacing the first vial with another. then ANOTHER. mother of all mosquitoes man. hahaha) and also me making a choice between choosing a card out of a deck of twenty and betting whether it is black or red. if i got it correct, i get sixty or zilch if i kelong. alternatively i could humji and not choose and get 15 bucks. so obviously i was as google puts it 'feeling lucky' so i just went for it. haha. so thats 60 bucks and 35 for participating in the survey. woohoo $.$

anyway filial me gave twenty bucks to my mom :)

and i sat in the double decker 95!!! haha for those non-NUS-ian, bus 95 is the bus that services the main route in nus and it has always been single decker like bus 16. then got new spanking double decker bus seh! haha quite scary to go uphill in a double decker.

ok shall snooze le!

8 more mug-free days left!

good ol' days

2011-03-18T10:27:00.001-07:00

hi guys. as usual ss is blogging at 1am in the morning. its funny how my sleeping time has shifted rather drastically from like 10pm to like 1-2am. cause i was buying bread at midnight just now (im the household saigang warrier by the way) and then when i was walking back to my house, there's this apartment block thats directly behind my house that had like most of the units with the lights off. either the occupants already hit their pillows or they are partying. haha im guessing its the former lah.

hmm maybe there's simply so much more stuff to do when one grows older. like how pri sch seemed sooooo free and its just sch then come back lepak watch pokemon/ whatever on kidscentral (now okto) and then dinner with channel 8 (still channel 8) local dramas (currently occupied by never ending taiwanese drama) and maybe the 9 oclock local dramas. then zzzz. wait maybe 30 mins of neopets-ing. haha you know speculating in the stock market, acquiring uber rare and multi-million weapons, going the treasure map thingy to zap your neopet to zeng/mutate it etc etc

so chill right. at least for my siblings and myself.

then upper sec was when i started sleeping later. with all the projects that required typing documents and YES POWERPOINTS. oh i miss doing ppts! haha. hmmm. then dun have facebook. but i think got friendster. but friendster is so...blah. haha. cant tag photos and fb chat. but then again, dslr wasnt very 'mainstream' or digital cameras for that matter so pretty much like what do they call it now.. er photos that required that film rolls. quite quaint huh.

then jc, army and now uni. and facebook! haha

anyway, FINALLY ended my theory exams for my second year. quite sian actually cause it was like mugging and mugging since the academic year started. haha, ask my mahjong buddies man. i was pertually either uber guilty for playing mj when i should be mugging or mostly whining on fb that i miss mj etc etc when i couldnt join them. but thank goodness im finally done. haha, now all the info either get auto-stored in some obscured corner of my brain or forever lost.

but then again, that spells the end of my sch sch life as in no regular lessons and coming to sch in tshirts shorts and slippers. sian got to iron my shirts and pants liao. but i like wearing nice formal shirts and pants :) hahaha but not very sg-climate friendly :( i hate sweating. thats why i joined swimming haha

hmmm. oh yah. spent a lot today. like had 17dollars worth of pizzas for lunch and then movie (thank goodness got student price. bloody hell otherwise its 10 freaking dollars. thats like one freaking piece of orange 10 dollars note WITHOUT change. wtf!!!) and fish and co @ heeren which THANKFULLY had 1 for 1! hahahaha but not say very nice lah. but oh wells. its one for one. haha

AND my sister went kelabbing!!!! :((( thats my YOUNGER sister mind you. and if you have been a faithful reader you would know that im still a club virgin. i feel so sad :( haha

ok quite stone le but

NINE DAYS OF MUG FREE HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohooo!!! :D

what do you live for?

2011-03-15T02:41:00.000-07:00

"If I Ain't Got You"

(hopefully the sound is good cause my speaker became mute :( haha)

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

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i live to not fail. hahaha

Dreaming

2011-03-03T09:21:00.000-08:00

hi ss here once more taking a break :)

so this pal of mine intro-ed me to this korean song from one of your typical...what do they call it.. hmm cant think properly now cause its one plus in the morning now. ah 偶像剧 or idol drama. but this one was different cause 偶像剧 is simply an understatement. 偶像剧 ttm would be more accurate cause it was literally stuffed full of up and coming new stars from this korean entertainment company (jyp entertainment i think)

anyway, im not gonna gush and go k-crazy cause i din really watch the drama. cause of MBBS 2.0 and all.

what i want to talk abt is my dreams :) haha i meant puffy dreams that i entertained before Reality struck me on the head and shook me by the shoulder real hard and made me realise of its existence

so here goes ss's dreams...

actually come to think of it, i think my first dream when i was like very young was to become a doctor. maybe it was my parent's successful propaganda/brain washing/inception campaign or i was simply Born This Way. haha anyway im sort of doing it now but as we all know, nightmare is also a type of dream so.... hope things will work out in the end

hmm then when i entered jc, i realised that being a doctor aint that easy cause its a lot mugging. and more mugging for like basically the rest of my life. and my dreams expanded

like i thought of becoming a scholar. that is a scholar of high enough level that can enjoy studying at a prestigous overseas uni. but plan fail cause civil service dun want me and i dun think im smart enough. then again, i think it would be quite stress cause like most of the top level scholars have like high expectations ie 1st class honours, otherwise they probably wun go far/ henta kaki in the civil service.

then i wanted to become a pilot. cause i wanted to travel the world. foc. and i really think that its really one of the few jobs that you really get to enjoy what you do.but once again civil service dun want me and i dun think i meet the requirements to become a pilot anyway so... the thought of becoming an air steward did cross my mind but, air stewardess dun really dig air steward do they? more of the pilot or the first class, maybe business class male passengers. and who likes seeing male air stewards? haha

ok im conked out le so shall save this now and continue later on...

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in jc, i was also interested in econs. ok $ to be more exact. so i did apply for econs as my second choice for my unip apps. but even if i din get into medicine, i probably would have died reading economics cause its apparently very maths inclined. and you know how i cant do maths unless there's a dollar sign in front of it.

anyway, i dun really know what to say now but i just hope that to whoever out there, esp my sister, and great grand juniors, who are receiving their a level results today, just do whatever you are interested in doing cause it really sucks to be doing something that you dun like. for the rest of your life. its like monday blues just that every working day is a monday.

and that like me, everyone dun only have one option. if one option slams its door in your face, just deface the bloody door and piss on it, and go look for other doors. i mean its probably easy for me to say that cause i am sort of in my first dream, but as i said, it aint exactly a bed of roses. even if it is, the roses haven been de-thorned. basically every option has its down and rough side so just plough on and make things work! just make sure that you are living in your own dream and not the dreams of others and things will work out fine

yup.

oh and i should probably embed the nice korean song here. really really very inspirational :)

dream on! and ss should probably mug on now. haha cheers :)

ss really shouldnt be doing this

2011-03-03T01:53:00.000-08:00

but idk just sian? or complacent. haha. panic haven exactly set in yet. lets see, its slightly less than 2 weeks before my next apocalypse and you know how my attention span is? one notes worth. so might as well blog instead of stoning eh? besides there's only so much of snooping one can do on facebook. hahaha

hmmmm. anyway, ive been thinking about it and i figured that there may indeed be a Force Upstairs. cause its really uncanny how my router went dead just before my exams. so im quite restricted to using the computer to fb instead of compulsively using my itouch to fb after like studying one set of notes. my itouch battery can last like 3 days now instead of one day when wifi was existent at my residence.

no i dun switch on my com after each set of notes i study. thats just an obvious sign that im addicted to fb. im not k. haha i just stone/ walk around the house/ sing a song or two/ nap/ read some short story on my itouch....

one thing about study break/ not going to sch is i lose track of what day it is. and im like quite scared that before i know it, the 2 Days of Reckoning is laughing manically and doing the Loser sign in front of my stunned and loser face.

sigh, i just thought of my fellow classmates mugging in sch and i totally sian ttm now.

shall get back to bones and joints!

cheers

too long for a fb status update

2011-03-01T09:56:00.001-08:00

so i went to watch the adjustment bureau just now with my regular movie buddy/pal milton and it was surprisingly awesome

as in the matt damon (jason bourne) and emily blunt (the other secretary in devil wears prada) pairing felt a bit weird but the plot and pace and all was quite good

esp the plot

which was basically

*SPOILER ALERT*

apparently there is this Higher Power aka Adjustment Bureau who intervenes when there is this need to and matt damon/ david norris who is this upshot politician, isnt supposed to fall in love with this random dancer girl emily blunt/ oh shit i forgot her name. haha too shag cant think. will edit when i have rested. anyway, you know you cant beat Love so no matter how hard the adjustment dudes tried, the two modern lovebirds just cant be separated.

anyway thats the very very brief summary of the plot. doesnt sound that awesome here but well, its 2 in the morning and i should be mugging/sleeping instead of doing whatever this is.

BUT the main thing i want to talk about is how one of the adjustment bureau agents (yes thats what they call themselves. and its super awesome cause they have like hats to allow them to open doors to everywhere. sort of like matrix just that matrix need has this key dude. ah i digress)

so going back to how the agent tried to dissuade matt/david from being with emily by saying how he stands risking his future (i.e the next POTUS which stands for the President Of The United States. cool eh? haha) and emily's future as the greatest contemporary dancer of the US. for Love.

would you do it? take this leap of faith for living with someone you love. or someone you THINK you love.

hmm an analogy would be say you are a rich guy/girl and you like/love this poor person and if you die die want to be with this other person, your family will disown and disinherit you. ok say you dun care, spurn the rich and comfortable life and come what may die die got together with this other poor person.

then you find life as a poor person suck. you sulk, your other half sulk. how?

then really have to rely on the Power of Love already huh?

thats probably what i meant by the leap of faith. whether you are willing to risk a assured comfortable life for something unknown and uncertain as Love.

and nope i wun. then again, i dun have a rich inheritance, so maybe yes. hahaha

and emily blunt's character is called elise!

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feb, like jan, has come and gone.

$ makes the world go round

2011-02-26T21:31:00.000-08:00

hmm somehow just felt the urge to comment about the dr susan lim-brunei affair which has been on the news recently.

(for those who dun know who dr susan lim is, she's a private doctor who charged like 24million for a year's worth of 'servitude' to a bruneian patient who was apparently the sultan's sister (i think). and the point of contention, ok sorry correction, there's no contention at all cause its a fact that she was sort of like a middleperson who compiles all the consultation fee of the other doctors that the patient consulted and charges the fee x 5-800)

anyway, i dun dispute the fact that dr lim is unethical by overcharging x 100 but apparently she was providing premium service so maybe she was justified in adding some 'service charge' just that she was lousy in maths and missed out a decimal place. but truth is i think there's some hidden agenda behind this whole woohaa cause its not the bruneian she's is fighting against but the Singapore Medical Council. i mean, even the 'victim' is not complaining why should SMC go and bother?

and looking at how high profile the case is, the only parties who stand to benefit are 1) the lawyers (As always) and 2) the bruneians. no offence but if they can afford to pay like so many millions since 2001 why not just let them continue to pay? i mean, after all dr lim may have extended the lifespan of her patient and you know how ppl say there isnt a price on life and since they are so rich, why not?

lose-lose situation lah basically. dr lim will lose her reputation and SMC will lose its standing by being so prejudiced.

to be honest, i quite pity dr lim. ok she may be too greedy but those wall street bankers are also greedy and i really hope she doesnt like commit suicide or anything.

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anyway, my internet router died yesterday and i never felt more lonely without facebook. hahaha

and ive established that though im a compulsive fb addict it actually does not affect my studies cause i cant study without breaks anyway. like how my attention span is about one set of notes worth and i just stone now instead of fb-ing.

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hmmmm. nothing much about my life except just waiting for the pre-exam panic to set in and the emo-ness to begin

haha cheers

where's the fine line?

2011-02-17T04:05:00.000-08:00

'at some point you will realise that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop.

leave them alone.
walk away.

it's not as like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try.

it's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. what is truly yours will eventually by yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.'

if this touched something in your heart, then you are not alone

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anyway, its just very sad and i dun know regretful? that what seemed to be a friendly friendship just changed. dissipated. if it was even a friendship.

and thing about relationship is not like grades, you cant just work harder at it to change matters.

and you dun know what went wrong too. like no de-brief or anything.

then again, even if i knew what was wrong, doesnt mean i will be able to change and improve. cause i would probably have to change myself.

and to change myself for someone, something, with no guaranteed results?

would you?

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hot hot weather. but nice blue skies

Happy 21st Friendship Day to me

2011-02-13T03:56:00.000-08:00

And all like-hearted comrades who are for whatever reasons single and hopefully enjoying it.

so love is in the air *coughs coughs* haha

or for those without love, then i suppose one has to make do with friends. thats similar loser friends without lovers. haha its ok im a loser too.

anyway, realised while reading my ageing notes just now that 1) i haven blogged for a while and 2) valentines day is just tomorrow so maybe time to share my thoughts on this elusive mysterious evidently quite powerful force that can compel ppl to do stupid things like jumping off a cliff ( the butterfly lovers) or poisoning oneself (romeo and juliet) etc etc. oh sorry did i say stupid? i meant noble. haha. and that is *drum roll* Love.

hmm maybe i should start with the few e.g that i have had the pleasure to observe

its rather amazing to actually see how two completely different individuals somehow connect to each other and i mean if they are both completely different than there has to be some mysterious force in play and i can only conclude that it is Love.
different in terms of personality, interests, etc etc. and its really quite amazing to see how this two individual change when they are interacting with one another. its like the atmosphere will change and yeah, you will just watch and decide to siam after a while otherwise might just get diabetic. haha

and its really quite remarkable that two ppl can actually not get bored with each other. i mean, how much can two individuals talk abt right? like there's this two classmates of mine (of which lovers would not be sufficient to describe their relationship... its already something beyond that, like marriage without the bitter-ness. at least not yet.) who are perpetually together. maybe its just the feeling of being with each other?? i seriously have no plausible explanation for this phenomenon. haha

another thing that i havent had the luck to experience is the mythical 'love at first sight' phenomenon. like how is it suppose to happen? does it only apply to super chio ppl who are physically attracted to one another ie lust or does it apply to ordinary ppl who are completely ordinary in appearance and somehow they just know that they are each other's half. at first sight mind you. haha purlease. it has to be lust.

on a love related note, im watching 爱. haha

then again on a more traditional and personal note i see my parents who argue er quite often and i have second thoughts about marriage. like i dun see any love at all. maybe more subtle things like my mom buying clothes for my father even though he thinks its a waste of money and raises a big fuss about wasting money etc etc. never seen them holding hands either.
which makes me wonder if i want to get married in the future.
i mean, after a while, things start to get more serious and boring. commitments take over love and all the mushy stuff. no romance basically.
then again i suppose after a while romance doesnt really matter cause its more of having a companion more so than a lover. i.e you dun die alone and sad. haha

but im a noob at this thing called Love so maybe i should just get back to you when some arrow by a naked baby angel called cupid taiko-ly strikes me.
just make sure the same arrow strikes a hot person too. haha

cheers :)

1/12 bo liao

2011-01-31T05:30:00.000-08:00

and so 1/12 of the new year is already ticking its last few hours
win already loh. before i know it, i will be some old lonely uncle. sigh
haha

anyway, that means feb (ie season of the red hong baos with the attached different coloured Yusolf Bin Ishak potraits) is coming so no complains there.

still it is with some degree of.. for the lack of a better word, longing, that i wish time will not pass so quickly.

must be the having-ca-in-jan effect lah, mug mug mug and mug. damn waste youth. haha. but bo pian, future lives are at stake. oh and comfort too.

or maybe its just the im-getting-old-and-sentimental effect.

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(snap shot of last night's journal)
anyway, at the rate that its raining (the clouds are taking a breather now though) its as if the world might end any moment, so how? should i enjoy life or mug and mug then die without enjoying life. haha. ok that was a rhetorical question. obviously the latter considering how humji i am.

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omgg and im gonna get fat and become atheromatous at the rate im feasting and eating. weekly birthday parties, and with cny coming up. o' arteries i hear you weeping tears of lipids! haha shall eat yong tau hu or smt for recess for the coming weeks.

anyway, wishing everyone a dong dong qiang chinese new year but yeah, dun bust your waistlines k! many cheers:)

?????

2011-01-26T05:32:00.001-08:00

was what i thought when i was doing my last mcq paper for my ca (Continual assessment) haha, seriously i never thought i would get owned so big time by mcq. ok maybe jc chem mcq was quite ownage too but medicine mcq beats it hands down. hmmm come to think of it, most of it was the pharmacology component so technically thats under chemistry too!

Anyway was emo-ing during my Pre-ca prep (just like what every mortal ie average student would do) abt why and who am I mugging my ass off for. My Future? Ie $ and more $. Or my Parents? Ie $ and more $ too haha. Or for my future patients / so I dun get my trousers sued off my ass when I cock up big time.
And I still havent got that straightened out yet.
Yeah definitely not because of compassion and all. At least not yet lah. I mean how is one suppose to feel compassion with thousand and one things to mug aye?
Pls dun judge me haha doctors also need to pay off their tuition loan and support their parents

Hmmm sch as we all know it ie lectures, wearing slippers and shorts is ending in abt three weeks and that raises a dilemma. Should I pon sch since i can't pon clinicals and enjoy the convenience of webcast or really savour what's left of my sch experience?

Haha actually I dun intend to pon sch lah just that the timetable is just so ponnable plus notes aren't being printed in time for the lectures. And I panic when the webcasts starts to accumulate. Like I've got four hours worth of lectures to catch up with. Zomg

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It rained like ten thousand million times today. Wonder where all that water came from

And I typed this post excluding the first para on my itouch :)

modern day cinderella

2011-01-08T01:02:00.000-08:00

note that the 'Last Train' and '1 Minute' was flashing in red. haha

anyways, went to my first 21st birthday party (JOEL!!) yesterday and it was at Hard Rock Hotel @ RWS. quite Zeng (i.e impressive) for e.g the in-room coffee was from Nescafe the atas range that George Clooney did the commercial for? haha wait let me find it. oh correction its Nespresso. and here you go!

yeah wanted to stay behind and protect my dear friend joel from the the alcohol but alas my parents summoned me back home. typically only my mom would be yelling on the other end of the phone but curiously this time, my father who normally takes the back seat on discipline matters too insisted that i returned home. haha so no choice have to abide to the 'over-the-phone imperial edict' sian cant experience my first wild booze party. oh wells, at least my liver is happy. haha

yeah, speaking of 21st birthday parties, i expect this whole year to be a series of weekly engagements. im not trying to say that im a social butterfly cause i am really not, but somehow i already have 4 other birthday events to attend for the month of january. yeah i think my wallet is trembling in fear. haha oh wells, its a once in a lifetime thing anyway. as in not just your typical once a year birthday but more of 21st is like THE birthday transition milestone from youth to adult?

but its seriously scary to see how my peers are apparently quite liberal with the booze.

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yeah i realised somehow that ppl have two misconception about yours truly.
1) im a mugger. seriously im not. as in not chao mugger lah. i mean, yes i do go to the library and moan and whine on my facebook updates that im in the library blah blah blah but honestly, im there to nap before my next programme be it lesson or like yesterday, waiting to go to joel's bd party. besides, im perpetually on fb!

2) im a shopaholic. no lah, no money how to shop. i only shop when there's like sale. not to mention my father will nag and nag and nag and nag. not without reason lah haha. but im in the process of building up my clinicals attire repertoire. and im contemplating about starting on a tie collection too :)

haha then again, all these misconception arose from my facebook status updates. so gotta clarify.

hmm i dun know if ppl are reacting positively or negatively to my rather regular facebook status updates, but i dun know, maybe im attention deficit or smt, but i treat it as a form of microblogging? yeah.

so anyway, sorry if im spamming your facebook live feeds with my regular mundane boring tidbits of whats happening in my life

ok gotta drive my mom to do some grocery shopping so here's a funny graffiti by my awesome playhouse musical director when i unintentionally pranked him in the library

ps: notice the wrong date once again. haha

ss you have to let go

2011-01-06T05:29:00.000-08:00

correct date. wrong year.

haha was looking through my notes and realised that i have written the wrong year for most of them

Mother of all Refresh

2010-12-31T10:47:00.000-08:00

hmm i felt rather refreshed somehow after the new year after i came back from my friend's house for the countdown (bit more later). then again, maybe its because i just took my bath. was rather hot today. humid too. (haha sorry for stating the default sg weather.) and i was wearing a shirt. and i walked from ion to taka to somerset313 prior to camping at my friend's house.

guess what these 3 malls have in common?

yes Zara. lol. was planning to get a white and black shirt ever since i saw them like pre-christmas? but frikking ex. 89.90 seh. each. siao. haha so i was pleasantly surprised to see an advert on thurs (thats 30th dec) announcing zara winter sale. (and pls dun get me started on why those happening brands stock winter/autumn clothes in sg)
yeah turns out din get a white or even black shirt cause either wrong size or just dun have that feeling aka harry potter when he chose his wand. haha
i sort of got that feeling with this purple striped shirt with white collar and cufflinks though so i bought it! :D
but quite ex still. but it was 30 bucks cheaper so i shant complain :)

ok i digress. haha

lets start by recapping the year 2010 then...

and it all started with

GSS RESOLUTIONS FOR 2010

1. Learn Driving

first time pass :) quite proud of myself. haha

2. Upgrade from a Below-Average Medical student to an Average-Medical-Student. yes im being extremely practical by not saying Above-Average cause its seriously going to spell the end of my already non-existent social life

oh. haha. down up down. i seriously need to re-evaulate this 'item' for the 2011 edition

3. watch nice movies! first on the list is the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. followed by Percy Jackson and the Olympians (MAGIC!), Valentines Day (LOVE!!!!!), Up in the Air (GEORGE CLOONEY!!!), Wall Street 2 ($$$$$$)

all done. on hindsight, quite silly of me treat 'which movie to catch' as resolution. pfft. haha

4. Acquire tuitees (to supplement my lifestyle needs, or wants)

yes. had 2. eh wait 3. then with the passing of 2010, one graduated from jc, another from pri sch. so left one :(( hopefully got good assignments with the new year!

5. Get a new pair of shoes

yup. and on another hindsight, quite silly to put shopping choices as resolutions. got money just buy lah! haha no money suck thumb loh hoh?

6. Get a new pair of specs

hmm this is different cause its about my face. and yes got it

7. Get MY EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLARS 50 Years of Public Housing 1/4 OZ Fine Gold Proof Coin (may need to sacrifice my new shoes and specs)

yes.

8. Blog once a month starting from now :)
yup definitely. haha

yeah other than the fact that i thought 2010 went pass quite fast, it was rather fine. academics not included lah. haha. sigh, what to do, im already stuck with my course. just work harder loh. haha not that sch's not fun lah. its just a bit xiong. and im the type who doesnt thrive in competition. so own time own target loh. just that might have to set my targets higher.

and lets pause for an interlude. something in between 2010 and 2011. haha

i din photoshop anything by the way. and can you spot it???

AND SO, moving on tooooo

oh and it started with a bang. multiple colourful bright and shiny bangs in fact haha

thanks to my good old pri sch pal milton who stays at a vantage point :)
very inspiring to see a new year start off so vibrantly and BOOMZ-ly haha

hmmmm. yeah was thinking about setting my 2011 edition of resolutions but after some contemplation, i felt that 'Resolutions' sounds very resolute (resolution- the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.) and im not the type of person who has the discipline, or 'firmness of purpose' to really really do smt. unless i really really really want it lah. and i dun have anything that i really x 5 die die must do one so yeah.

maybe just Attempts? haha

so lets see what do i want to have/do/accomplish?????

1. AH yes, break my clubbing hymen. lol. I HAVENT BEEN TO A CLUB YET. lol. cui.

2. hmm study harder? haha that means having the discipline to NOT facebook so often on my ipod touch. yeah and really be slightly more serious with my studies loh. haha

3. and to be healthy. like maintain my current level of fitness. or maybe more :) ive started to pick up jogging once more since the hols started and ive started from just under 12min for 2.4 km, to 10min 41sec :) hopefully can cut down further but aint gonna set a target cause im not the type who sets target cause i know i wun hit it. haha just enjoy the process? and be pleasantly surprised when ive got nice results!

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and of course

2011! wishing everyone a better and :)-er year!

cheers! :D

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hmm ive been thinking abt it, maybe i shall adopt a 'dun get my hopes/expectations up too high' mentality to avoid getting disappointed. studies or even relationships.

haha yeah a bit no balls but whadeva :P

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ps: 31st december 2010 was a friday. not a saturday

Neo pls siam

2010-12-17T09:03:00.000-08:00

SO first week of dec hols is ending/has ended (depending on what's one definition of end of the week is, whether its fri or sun)

hmmm. lets recap. my hol started rather painfully but awesome-ly with a day trip to malaysia with paintball (refer to the second last post). and then it sort of went downhill from then. wait. haha. i forgot the fantastic movie which saved my sunday- chronicles of narnia- voyage of the dawntreader.

and it went down down down from then.it reached a record low when it seems that i might have spoken too soon abt not telling my awful ca results when my ever observant and shrewd mom noticed a GROSS abnormality. i.e me actually being studious during the hols. and i guess it doesnt help that both my bros are absolutely carefree. (my eldest bro even got an iphone to entertain himself. pfft)

sigh and after some hemming and hawing, i told her my results and she just gave a loud cackle :((( and then my dad asked if i needed to redo my paper. imagine the blow and then ANOTHER BLOW. and then ANOTHER BLOW when my father asked AGAIN after i have retreated to the kitchen to ponder over my miserable existence and purpose in med sch

yeah so basically i was mugging. correction, attempting to mug.

and

observe the dullness in my glassy eyes
haha

hmm and i finally had opennet installed in my house after like forever. then again, installation doesnt mean service yet so idk, see who in my household bothers to check the broadband prices for the new optic fibre network which apparently BROADENS OUR MINDS. haha

fortunately, my good old reliable friend milton managed to salvage my week with his 20th year of existence (and a good many more years ahead!)

had uber up dinner plus desert and wait for it....

TRON LEGACY

if there's one word to describe this movie, it would be- E.P.I.C

GSS (Great Stunning Spectacular) visuals. as in really really ______________ (ie my vocab fails me haha)
graphics/effects were like star wars and matrix combined. x 1000 cooler. and the trenchcoat neo wore in matrix is just so passe man. go see kevin flynn's/ jeff bridges' trenchcoat which has neon-lighted lining. awesome. its like the audi of trenchcoats. haha
plot is quite like matrix but in the star wars sense. haha. hard to explain. you will get it when you watch it. oh and lord of the rings too! cause it involves a rather large ring.
and jeff bridges is just like a Neo with real emotions and depth. as in seriously, although he cant really fly but his powers is quite like Neo. plus he's uber smart. and real zen. haha

then i ended my evening programme with a mad dash to catch my carriage (i.e circle line) home aka cinderella style. thank PAP for the circle line man. haha

ok gotta catch some zzz

but before that, do catch this year's starry christmas at orchard! :)

chronicles of ss

2010-12-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

oops sorry. NARNIA. haha

yup so yours truly went out ONCE AGAIN today for a movie outing with my regular movie club i.e milton, eugene and leonard to watch

THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE VOYAGE OF THE DAWNTREADER

what a mouthful and pompous title. haha but it was fantastic and as the british says it- 'bloody brilliant'

first of all, graphics was gooood. everything was just alive. plot + script was magnificent ie everything made sense and transition between chapters was just seamless. and there wasnt a single boring part ( compared to Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows which was not as impressive as its title, sadly)

acting was also commendable (ok im running out of adjectives for good haha). esp the little prick eustace who matured into a very nice person. special mention for the big rat called...wait let me google it. Reepicheep.

thankfully, there was also subs otherwise i would have gotten lost in the british accent, which is nice to hear but darn difficult to catch

anyway, the movie or rather the story was very meaningful and i think christians will love it, esp the final part where Aslan mentioned that He is known by Another Name in the human world. (note the strategic caps at selective words haha). of course, non-christians will also find it meaningful lah. like making the right choices, not giving into temptations, bittersweet-ness of partings, etc etc. yeah and i suppose what makes this movie so pleasant to watch is that everything's natural and not too contrived and preachy. yup so kudos to the actors and director!

so i shall thereby bestow...

4/5 Blue Stars to THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE VOYAGE OF THE DAWNTREADER (by the way, i just copied and pasted the title this time cause seriously, too bloody long to type haha)
and as for why Blue stars, watch the movie and you will know why :)

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anyway, my mom thinks that ive got too much kang tao/ lobangs cause apparently ive been out everyday since what thurs? and my wallet feels it too.

oh wells. so i had to be a good boy and trot to the hawker centre nearby to get brunch for her + family

maybe a shoulder + neck massage too later at night. haha

cheers!

There and Back again

2010-12-11T06:34:00.000-08:00

what a BLAST-ing start to my sch hol! haha AWESOME! finally a getaway (sentosa not included) since like... nov 2007? haha woooohhooooo

There...

yup so i went for a day's excursion (wow! excursion sounds so primary sch-ish eh?! gawd i miss those days haha) to our hinterland aka johor bahru for paintball/pain-ball primarily cause its apparently much much cheaper! like 60 ringgit for 350 pellets. yup apparently its like 49 sing dollars for 200 rounds in sg. (if you are math inclined, the current exchange rate is about 2.38 ringgit to 1 sg dollar)
though the transport there is like s$25 pax BUT if you include cheap but GOOD tzi char which i shall elaborate on later, its definitely a 5x$ scale on ss's budget deals haha

yup so the day started with me waking up at once again an un-holy hour of 7 plus am and me entering last minute negotiations with my extremely concerned mother regarding my cross-border excursion (maybe she doesnt feel safe without signing a consent form?? haha)

followed by hotcakes at our rendezvous point @ kallang macs which is fortunately strategically situated close to my humble abode.

and our trip across the causeway! which is surprisingly fast! cause apparently our minivcan/bus is under bus and not private cars so special lane! zooom zoom :D

moving on to paintball!! it was

FUN (PAIN) FUN FUN! haha. the only tiring part was running back to the base to 'respawn' after getting shot. and of course, yours truly aka MVP also had to chionnng back to the base after grabbing the flag each time x5

and of course, the satisfaction of shooting someone right SMACK in the face (protected by visor of course haha)

by the way, thats quite, no VERY hard cause the gun thingy apparently doesnt obey the law of physics so one has to like rain shots in a particular direction. i swear it curves like david beckam's free kick. haha

so after numerous petechiae/bruises/wounds, we emerged otherwise unscathed and very very pleased from the battlefied

exercise cut at about 3+ so couldnt really eat dinner then right? so we just lepak and hang around i dun know where but some of us went for foot massage while budget me went to shop for chewing gum haha. spent like abt 30 plus ringgit on 8 eclipse-like bottles of gum :))

and i had coffee lava ice cream! yum yum

so after some typical 'get to know abt med student's life (or lackof )' + pre/post ord chat, we proceeded to...

DINNER! haha. we had like
2X calamari
2X fried rice
mussels, iron-plate tofu, oyster omelette, sambal kangkong, baby kailan, and awesome mini chicken wings on sticks. oh and the addictive sour plum lime juice :P

all for like just below 10 sg dollars!

tzi char will never be the same again in sg man. not just the price but its like damn delicious too!

(that's round one. so need to x another time for round 2 haha)
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and Back again

sadly there's no special bus lane on malaysia's side so journey back was rather lengthy but ok lah managed to reach home in about 2hrs?

OH! and apparently there's this automated fast pass thing with the biometric passport! damn fast. haha

and i managed to bring in my stash of chewing gum without any hiccups

all in all, i spent
SG SEVENTY FIVE DOLLARS ONLY/=

if you take away my chewing gum expenditure, its like about the same as a trip to universal studios :)

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so thank you yanni, chun han, chun han's sis + bf (alvin), marie, jastine & normen, nazri, peizi and yee ling

and of course our super zai bus auntie

cheers and HAPPY HOLS! :D

what have i gotten myself into

2010-12-08T01:22:00.000-08:00

playhouse!

finally selfish me has participated in some noteworthy medicine activity! haha as in i dun really commit myself to some long term project esp since nus is so damn bloody far and me being uber busy and all. lol.

yup and im quite pleased with myself considering i only missed (NOT PON mind you) one rehearsal cause i overslept. and it was a sat! who wakes up before noon on a weekend? haha thats not to say im not apologetic cause i am! my perfect attendance :(

anyway thats why i rarely make commitments these days cause i feel bad if i dun give my best so i only do things that im absolutely stamp chop confirm i can do it properly :) not to trumpet myself but i really do feel that ppl just dun understand what it means to be committed cause it really defeats the purpose of having rehearsals with ppl not coming then things will not really improve will it? i mean not to forget fun and all but after all we need to present something to audience right? not exactly fair to those who show up regularly either.

on a happier and more cheerful note, playhouse was quite the experience considering that alot of ppl participated in it and i am really really proud to be in the company of smart and talented ppl

not too mention having some semblance of life outside my mugger and money-grubbing mode. haha sad but true.

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and having 3 other siblings leading a carefree life now that sch is out for them really makes me sore about my state of affairs :(

to think that i was happily gloating over the fact that i had my exam first but in the end, last to have my hols. which is not exactly meant to be hols either cause the next ca (continual assessment) is apparently 3 weeks after sch reopens?! so pretty much an extended study break :( which has to be taken seriously considering how 1) i have slacked after the previous ca so thats about 3 weeks worth of sch to catch up and webcast; and 2) how badly ive done for my ca :((( trust me im not the type of person to say ive done badly and scored Not Excellent but above average. when i say badly i mean below average. and in this case, quite below average. so bad that i haven and dun intend to tell my parents. haha oops

and i dun know if ive mentioned this before, but ive been pondering abt how un-fun medicine is cause
1) its just going to be get more difficult as one progresses
2) school work is accumulative unlike other courses which is as i see it, 'fire and forget'. i.e my bros are enjoying life now while im fretting over my holiday mugging schedule and i cant imagine at the end of med sch, i have to mug five bloody years worth of content for my final mbbs. SIGH + SOBS
3) doctors dun really earn that much in actual fact. ok let me qualify that. AVERAGE doctors dun really earn that much.
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on another depressing note, my financial state is rather like the winter season with my money tree bald and note-less :(
sad sad sad

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hmm dun know if you guys realised it yet but we are just 3 weeks to a new year. haha dun know if this is sad or happy news for you guys but well, the years do seem to pass quicker as one grows older/ages

i seem to be still stuck in nov. or oct. or sept or aug...

AHHHHH we are getting closer to 2012! haha

ss wants his

2010-11-26T08:14:00.001-08:00

sch's out!

2010-11-10T06:26:00.000-08:00

not.

haha sian no break at all after ca. and to make things worse lessons start half an hour earlier tomorrow at an un-saintly hour of 8am. is the sun even up then? lol ok a bit exaggerated but YAH. just had 2x 3 hrs of papers leh. the first time i ever slept or rather lapse into unconsciousness during exam can? shockin. lol

and studying for exam makes me feel uber short-changed. like super duper diminished rate of returns. and test all the weird random facts too. SIGH. and its really amazing how much cramming med sch is capable of doing. i figure we actually study a whole year worth of jc stuff in what 3 months. value for money i agree but erm waste paper?

but i suppose it could be YOUR life that may be in my hands or rather brains in the future so...better to be safe than sorry :) erm i try not to screw up k? haha

anyways was planning to post abt places to study previously when i thought i had the time during the study break but apparently i either slept too much or totally no mood to blog so here goes!

i) sch library!

so thats yours truly taking a well deserved break in the library's comfy chair haha
yup obviously one of my main criteria for a nice study hangout would be its sleepability and i must say nus science library tops the list :)

not to mention free air con and extremely lung-saving during the hazy days. and wifi! ie facebook haha

ii) macs. hmm environment surprising pleasant with nice music and smell. air con too.

cant sleep though haha unglam to just smear oneself on the tabletop dun you agree?

iii) starbucks

i honestly dun understand why ppl like to study at starbucks. small pitful table. expensive beverage. noisy coffee machine.

only saving grace is wifi. lol

and can someone teach me abt the different sizes for the drinks? so atas leh in italian? lol. just small med big lah. abit suaku to order with wrong pronounciation dun you think? at least for me lah.

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anyway my license came in the mail on monday! :D

then again its like a license to kill. lol

hopefully not lah.

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1 more month to sch hols!!

The 1030-Cheezels Experiment

2010-10-08T06:04:00.000-07:00

so following a brilliant relevation stimulated by eileen i decided to try out a new 'regimen' whereby i skip my regular 1030 brunch and eat at 1300 instead in my bid to reduce the frequency and depth of my lapses of consciousness during lectures.

perhaps a brief overview of the timeline of an average day in school. basically lessons start at 0830 till 1300 with a half hour break at 1030. and my hypothesis explaining my above mentioned problem being blood being diverted from my brain to stomach --> no..ok not NO blood but LESS blood in brain = 'standby mode'

well first of all, my journeys into the dream realm or as some ppl call it, 'inception', was definitely less frequent and vivid. and was certainly more alert. though i wun say Extremely alert.

BUT experiment was flawed in a respect cause lessons started at 0930 for the most days week i conducted the experiment so...

then you might ask why i dun try extending it for another week.

thing is, there were several few drawbacks to this 'trial' cause
i) i realised that it was very anti social to not eat at 1030 cause everyone eats at 1030. and if i was to recall correctly, i was the person who started this trend. haha. and why is that so? that brings me to point #2
ii) cause eating at 1300 is certainly a pain in the a**. the queue is just ridiculous. not to mention finding seats. and i hate queueing so ive been an advocate of brunch @1030 since sch last year
iii) and of course my poor stomach haha

so i guess its back to napping during lectures. haha im thinkin of napping 'selectively' i.e during 'enrichment' lectures :)

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with regards to the cheezel aspect of the experiment, i have concluded that its most ideal to snack on snacks like cheezels whereby you can squeeze the bits of an opening @ the corner of the packaging and not touch the food! cause you know im a stickler for hygiene and yup so i dun leave like cheezel residues/stains on my pens and notes.

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and yay! i passed my driving test. thats like such a huge load of my time and wallet! haha spent about 1.3k? quite ex sia. but rather happy that its all done!

it would be absolutely dreadful if i failed... imagine spending more time and money. i would be damn pek chek.

so do look out for me on the roads! cause i wun be looking out for you! lol.

bb driving instructor's car!

Prologue ... Epilogue

2010-08-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

Prologue
Day 0. 18th May 2010, Tuesday.
(Occasion- Last Day of M1 MBBS Pros)

went to Vivo to C.E.L.E.B.R.A.T.E. had Japanese Ramen after standard 'stalling' for some time deciding where to eat.

and of course, another standard gathering at Sean's house for Mahjong + Glee highlights/crashcourse

on hindsight, i can still recall that everyone was pretty stoned and shag due to x number of days of mugging. haha

(oh by the way, this whole day 0 thingy is actually true cause being a sentimental bloke with short term memory, i thought it might be wise to keep a journal to document the passing days. and im thinking right now that it was a darn good 'initiative' :) cause otherwise, i will seriously be unable to recall what happened and that would be a real pity cause this 2+months vacation was seriously rather Boomz. haha)

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... (Whats In-between)

i)Shopping. spent around $800? oh my thats a lot. haha
but the bulk i.e $300 was on expanding my coin collection cause i bought YOG and whats apparently the first rectangular sg coin! that commemorates the 45th national day...which is TODAY!! happy birthday Singapore!! :D

and there's the new specs + a grown up wallet! haha i think im in love with my Braun Buffel wallet!

nice eh?? haha. for the record i got it for 89.10. after a 10% discount of course. i never buy things that are not discounted on principle that my initial is GSS haha. just to illustrate my point, i just calculated and the nett price of my shopping list is apprx 1k. impressive eh?

damn i sound like a bloody cheapskate auntie. haha

ii)Work. yup so i did another stint at science centre for the pixar exhibition. which lasted for about 20 odd days. and a haul of 1.2+k

iii)Tuition. x24 times. which brought in abt another 1k.

so if you do the maths, you will know that i earned abt 2.2k? not bad right? *smug grin* haha, but i gave about half to my mom so if you minus off my expenditure too, my bank account pretty much maintained status quo. sigh. thats depressing. haha

iv) Driving. hmm. room for improvement.

OH on a related note, i dreamt last night that i sort of bumped my instructor's car into another car and hoped that i was dreaming. lol so weird right.

v) Hanging out with friends.

vi) Medicamp!

vii)NUS RAG cum YOG celebrations. i am actually looking forward to YOG! me feels extremely proud that our Glorious Nation is organising this magnificent event :) so much so that i got tickets for the closing ceremony! haha. so patriotic right.

oh yes back to rag. haha. well it was SMASHING. respect to all those who siao on contributed to rag! yeah actually im sort of impressed by how much they are willing to contribute to something which might not (evidently) yield a result thats proportional to how much one has put in. i suppose its all about the process though? like the friendship forged and the enjoyment experienced etc

yup so here's a big WELL DONE to all who have contributed to med rag! *big pat on the back*
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Epilogue- Day 83 (An End. Before the Next Beginning). which so happens to be our Glorious Nation's 45th Birthday too haha

well, obviously i had to end this close to 3 months holiday with ...

an OG gathering at sean's house! haha. quite cool right, start and end the holiday with gathering at sean's house. and im hoping that my new academic year will be a exceptional one considering how i totally OWNED at poker. flush + queens full of tens can?! *still cant believe im that tyco. no, lucky* haha

anyway, if there's one thing i regret about not doing during the hols, its not doing stuff for medicine. like i see ppl stepping up and doing a magnificent job of upholding medicine's good name through like rag, post camp cip, medicamp, whitecoat etc etc, while im like chilling out. but then again, i got to admit that i cant really commit in the first place cause well, im just a mere mortal who needed to work to provide for my own needs..ok maybe wants too.

but seriously, if i cant even take care of my own needs, i dun see how i can take care of other's needs. right? maybe next time k?! i promise :)

and thus, i shall end this rather extended post with...

cheers! :)

ss is damn bustard/lucky fcuk

2010-07-23T07:42:00.000-07:00

haha as usual this blog is rated PG so had to tweak the spelling for a couple of words in the title.

anyway, was prompted to write this post because i realised that ive been takin short cuts or express routes here and there. i.e my bro sent the regards of a fellow vj swimmer who's in nus now. and the guy (harry is his name) is 1 years my senior but i was in vj before he came to vj and i was in nus before he came to nus. hows that possible? haha read on to find out...

i) tyco got into victoria integrated programme. and that meant
a) i got to skip o levels
b) was in vj for 4 years- which meant that i was in fact a senior junior if you are talkin abt being in a cca i.e swimming for 4 years. hmm abit confusing so maybe i should give an illustration. so harry who's one year my senior came to vj in 2006 but me despite being younger, was already in vj since 2005. so i was already 1 year his 'senior' if you get what i mean.
c) got to go on enriching and heavily subsidised overseas trips. japan,usa,vietnam and japan again :)

ii) tyco got into nus medicine. and that meant
a) i got to bail out of army after 6 months
b) i wasted a much coveted place in the Force thats Above All. (think air)
c) entered uni 2 years before my peers. and 1 year before seniors like harry. haha

and now for the 'ss is a lucky fcuk' segment
i) picks up money now and then. i.e just picked up a five cent coin after buying lottery today. (hope thats a sign :P). anyway, im sure some of you scoff at picking up 5 cents but well, 2 five cents make 10 cents and .... haha. not to forget the other time when i picked up 2x fifty dollars. man thats going to be a hard record to bust.
ii) has had good tutors so far in his medicine course (Dr Lingam, Prof Ng Yee Kong and Prof Raj)
iii) catches weekend movies for $7.50 (thank you milton :)
iv) fellow classmate who stays nearby and drives to sch. in relative comfort ( thank you jon han :D
v)dermatologist uncle who makes sure ss keeps his pimples in check (thanks uncle :)
and a very sweet sugar mummy.

NOT. haha

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so i passed another hurdle in my attempt to get my driving license when i passed my ftt today. in flying colours (50/50) *smug smile* haha. but to be honest i was rather stressed about it as i was getting like one fifth of my practice questions wrong and was fretting about how failing this ftt meant prolonging my journey to get my class 3a license. not to mention im running on a rather tight schedule as im aiming to complete everything before my pdl (provisional driving license) expires in nov.

so now its just the stupid clutch left who's in my way.

anyway, i finished my ftt just in time to catch the olympic torch being fired up in real time when i was waiting to book my practical test. impeccable timing right? just like in inception when they woke up dream after dream after dream after dream after dream. (daniel did i overshoot again? haha)

the movie that everyone is dreaming abt

2010-07-20T02:07:00.000-07:00

yup you guessed it correctly. Phua Chu Kang: The Movie.

NOT.

haha inception duh. actually its not that complicated. if you are capable of comprehending going into level 4 (or maybe even level 5) dream state that is. i.e (dream within a dream)^4. can one lah if you pay attention and dun day dream

its just the end that was nothing short of well, short. sigh sloppy sia the director. haha

anyway, the acting was good but i just kinda feel disjointed cause its like seeing the same actor appearing in a similar movie like leonardo in shutter island and inception. and ken watanabe too (in shanghai). also ken is like another chow yun fat! haha

great piece of work but i dun think i can watch it again cause its just not the type of movie that you would want to watch twice. at least for me

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so how has life been for me? surprisingly busy. like how i did 5 tasks yesterday amazing-race style

i)woke up at 9am to check email for some sch related admin matter then went to sch to print out some documents. bo bian house printer cant work and no one wants to care. haha. in case you were wondering why i had to go alll the way to nus to just print some documents, its actually because of my 2nd and 3rd task
ii) popped by for rag sai kang to send my birthday regards to my councillee. so nice right? haha but he JUST HAD to be at uhc for his medical checkup -.-
iii) rushed off to cmpb to collect 2 inception movie passes which i won in pioneer contest! :) [at this point it was already 1230ish]
iv) rushed down to eunos for driving at 1330.
v) had tuition at 5pm so camped at marine parade library to take a shut-eye but kena woken up by librarian...

efficient machine right me? haha but i would not advise one to have such packed days cause frankly rushing abt sg and worrying abt being late is just not good for your heart. and stomach. no time for lunch man! had to like munch on sandwhich and spicy chicken floss bun.

then again, i was able to explore the rules of engagement for transfers in our public transport. like you can do up to 5 transfer within 2 hours, and the time allowance they allow between transfers is 45 mins. so e.g i reached nus at 11am but i took like 30 mins to complete tasks 1-2 so for my trip to cmpb, it was still under transfer :)

but still, having pri/sec/jc sch student concession was simply The Best. cheap cheap cheap. its like i have to top up my ezlink every week now despite using it for only like 3 days out of 7.

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finally, soccer outing just this afternoon. all i can say is that it was a breezy and smashing affair.

breezy cause they had this gigantic fan installed which was just epic. haha

and smashing cause i got my faced smashed twice. fortunately... make that VERY fortunately, i wore my army specs.

and i hurt my ankle and wrist too :( thats why i swim you see. just the water and me. no ball, no kicking, no sweat too!

haha otherwise it was fun fun fun.

BBF-D

2010-07-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

stands for BIG Breakfast Deluxe. haha so i finally brought my mom to Macs and treated her to a big breakfast. Deluxe. hmm actually its my mom who drove us to macs but thats not the point. haha. wah damn ex can $7.25 but worth it lah. got big breakfast PLUS 2 pancakes. or hotcakes whatever they call it. thats x2 cause i bought one for myself too. and another big breakfast (no deluxe) and mcmuffin (for my bro and father) $22.90 leh.

so you might wonder why im so uncharacteristically generous. well, cause i have 40 dollars worth of macs voucher so use loh. haha so nice right?

thats the committee for big breakfast deluxe having an emergency meeting before i send them to the depths of my Gastrointestinal tract :)

but fattening sia, i used like 2 servings of whipped margarine for the pancake. one each. haha oh wells, it was my breakfast + lunch anyway, so big breakfast is for breakfast and the 2 pancakes is my lunch :P

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So world cup 2010 has concluded and i must say not only was spain the big winner so were the betting outlets round the world. full of tyco results like usa beating spain in the first match, portugal 7-0 trashing of north korea and etc etc

and the final was rather boring leh. had to struggle to keep awake. but my whole family stayed up for it anyway. well my mom woke up only towards the end to see the ending. smart right haha

yes my tv is mounted high up on the wall. haha kopitiam style. well last decade style considering how even kopitiam these days have plasma/lcd tv.

LV CASE!! haha damn cool right

i apologise for the bad resolution and angle cause tv mounted high up on the wall remember? anyway i have a smaller plasma tv screen but somehow we chose to use this crt (cathode ray tube) tv. i think its because only this tv was connected to cable and since subscribed then might as well use it right? haha

sian i think this month utility bills confirm set record cause my father wakes up to catch the early morning matches whenever there are any. chill right to be retired? haha

anyway just wanted to say that this world cup was quite a blast and kudos to south africa! hopefully things will improve for them!

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driving stalls my pride

peanuts as chips for poker

2010-07-09T01:36:00.000-07:00

so i had a very rah rah orientation camp for medicine for the past 4 days. tiring sia. haha think im getting old. sigh. all the young punks just seem so full of energy i.e staying up to watch germany vs spain and slept for 3 hrs still can last for the next day while me slept at 2 and woke up at 9 still so shag. SIGH. where's the red bull mini cooper ladies when i need the boost.

yeah so i was a fake freshie for the camp and for me the best part was The Reveal cause its like everyone is just like WOAH. haha i think something like the twist for shutter island. Shock, Disbelief + Cheated. haha but it was all for fun lah. so to any juniors reading this, no hard feelings k? im still me with the exception that im not an air force clerk and my name is goh shao sheng. Peace. V

anyway, was thinking after the camp that it will probably be the last forseeable major fun event i will ever have. perhaps maybe one more for MUNUS next year but thats still pretty hazy for the future so was feeling rather emo. maybe its something like stockholm sydrome. for those who dun know, stockholm sydrome refers to the state whereby a kidnappee feels attached to the kidnapper. so what im trying to say is that after 3 days of mixing with the juniors i sort of feel like a part of them. but fact is im not so yah loh feeling rather emo abt it.

being an adult is overated. haha

what ss meant what he said he got a moat around his house

2010-06-27T23:04:00.000-07:00

cool right? haha. anyway seems like sg's weather gonna be rather wet for the coming days and honestly, i just hate the feeling of wet feet when my shoes get soaked. squish squish squish

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so my pixar work stint of 21 days has ended and boy has it been fast! and furious. haha, cause ive been pumping 6 days work week for the entire period so yeah mad right? and i think i may have neglected my health as a result. like how i fell sick for the past week but me thinks its partly because of the freezing working environment ive been working in. brr. and also i din really get to rest with my sole off day cause i tend to squeeze in driving and tuition on that day so yah loh. in short, all work no play makes ss a (relatively) richer but sick boy

so yeah, ive got to admit that the pixar exhibition was quite cool but ive got to add that the pixar exhibition has ended so for those who din go...you can try asking me for the illegal catalogue of photos ive taken :)

and also working in the service industry (as exhibition guide AND also movie ticket personnel) has thrown up some interesting experiences. i.e. i gave a guided tour to the fake michael jackson and entourage and dealt with tricky customers who behaved as if they were kings blah blah blah. ah! and ppl, no... THIEVES! who steal 3d glasses. haha. bast*rds.

anyways, maybe some nice (legitimate) photos for memory sake

oh on a separate but sort of linked to pixar note, GO CATCH TOY STORY 3! its just EPIC! you will just smile and laugh throughout the movie and its like sentimental but in a not too bitter but very sweet way! :)

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and so i bought the belt i said i planned to buy! for a steal too!!! haha it cost like 29 dollars originally but was on sale for 12! YE$! haha

and im planning to have a ns hair cut for my role as a mole/ fake freshie in medicamp but dun know leh... haha having like second thoughts of chopping off my thick and black mane. what say you?

forgot his title. (NOT)

2010-06-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

yep i forgot the awesome title i wanted to give this post. too bad haha

maybe its the tv. or the bloody droning sound of the vuvuzela. it should be made into a bad word or smt.

anyway, i realised the answer to why ppl dun blog these days. simply because they have better things to do. like bringing home the dough. haha. oh my i just checked and its been exactly 2 weeks since i last blogged. mostly because i have been busy with working and driving and giving tuition.

ok im experiencing writer's block. or blogger's block for that matter. gahh

erm. OH! I REMEMBER LIAO!!! hahahaha its

GSS'S GSS LIST!

uber awesome right?! lol

anyway, gss is not a greedy boy so he has only 3 items on his list for the shopping season.

1. belt
2. bag
3. non-army specs. maybe contacts :)

ok maybe some shirts and pants too if they catch my critical eyes. and more critical wallet. haha

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cant really think of anything else special to talk abt so maybe some random happenings/facts

- picked up 2x 50 dollars on the train
- attempted to smash my bag into a criminal that was running straight at me with 2 MRT (NSF?) security personnel chasing him. i guess i took too long to consider the pros and cons of stopping the bad guy (i.e kena stabbed) so he managed to siam my bag. he was caught by the way, as he tripped and fell.
as hamm of toy story 2 says 'crime doesnt pay'

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short acquaintances are like passer-bys of life

THIS IS EARTH CALLING OUT TO WHOEVER'S IN THE UNIVERSE

2010-05-31T06:28:00.000-07:00

pS: this is NOT a new post. i just changed the title from 'has blogging died' cause i was thinking abt it when i was bathing just now that its just such a dreary and serious title. and im almost certain that ppl will just be put out just by reading the title (i.e when its updated on my facebook wall). well, I was put off when i saw it on my profile. haha. and talking abt why i came up with such an UNcreative and boring title in the first place... well once again i was distracted by the tv. haha

so me, a lonely blogger, calling out to fellow bloggers out there!

ppS: if you have noticed, PS typically appears after the entire content, PS being Post-Script. well in this case, my 'pS' doesnt mean post-script or princess sophie (reference to da vinci code) BUT PRE-SCRIPT. haha cool eh?! i so totally invented a new terminology!

pppS: yes, i do alot of thinkin when im bathing. if im not singing that is :)

moving on to proper content....

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well, its just that not a lot of ppl i know have blogs and those i know who have it no longer blog that regularly. which reminds me of a scene i saw in how i met your mother where no one reads poor barney's blog and ted or marshall mocking him that blogging is so noughties (or whatever they call the first decade of the millenium)

so is bloggin just a passing fad? like friendster, neopets, twitter and stuff? or is it because no one is as eh free as me to blog? or is it just me thats craving for attention? haha

anyways, i have started keeping a logbook (not diary cause im quite a simpleton who doesnt have much reflection to do. haha) to record how my days went. i dun know but i just felt as if i dun want to forget how i lived my life. thats not to say im having a smashing time or anything but yah...maybe its the sentimental part of me trying hard to retain part of my past. and that time seems to just zoom pass so fast these days

of course im using a navy notebook as my logbook if you know what im talking abt :)

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SO how did i spend my second week of hols. well i attended a 2 day conference, watched 2 movies, went for mini swimming comp, went for a gathering and finally just went for an evening run. haha not sure if thats exactly a smashin week but at least im not rotting at home

(compliments of Edmund)

ah conference. haha i wun say its exactly exciting and really really interesting cause for like 70% of the time i dun really understand catch the balls the speakers were throwing (you know... catch no ball?) and so its a constant struggle to stay awake. and im proud to say that army has taught me well in fighting the zzzz monster :) of course the 30% that i understood is more than enough to make the entire conference worthwhile (thats the politically correct me speaking but i really really mean it haha)

oh and going for conference can really screw up one's diet cause from like 8.30am-5ish we have 3 meals- 2 tea breaks and 1 lunch session. its a constant struggle against one's stomach. haha

and another qirky, sometimes bordering on irritating aspect of a conference is some over-enthusiastic audience snapping photos at every slides...with flash and those fake taking-photo clicks. arg. haha

ok enough abt conference. so the 2 movies i watched were prince of persia (very sandy but good enough for 3 and a 1/4 stars) and SHREK 4 which was simply awesome. haha the soundtrack was very very spot on and the plot was refreshingly refreshing. GO WATCH IT!

hmm quite a lengthy post for today and i can imagine your attention wandering to facebook so i shall end it real quick with my evening run which was cool though not windy

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bye may. hello june

this is ss reporting live from the com lab in nus science/medical library

2010-05-25T21:07:00.001-07:00

and why you may ask is ss doing in the SCHOOL LIBRARY on such a fine fine day. hmm not so sure whether if its a fine day since 1) it was sweltering hot before i entered the library and im not sure if sweltering hot (i.e.sweating like a pig) = fine, 2) ive been in the library for the past 2 hrs? so gawd knows whats the weather outside is now. it may be raining cows and dogs and lamps for all i do not know

anyway, im attending a conference in sch later so zo bo for the moment and this is the only place where i can think of thats air conditioned and has computers (i.e facebook). so qn #2. why did ss come to sch so early when the conference starts at 2.30pm? ( for the record its 12.12pm now).

and the ans to that is cause i had an appointment to see a doctor at the UNC( University Health Centre) duh cause consultation is free! :) hmm should i share on why i had to see a doctor?

private :)

ok maybe not in case you guys think ive got some weird disease or smt.

well apparently ive got a superficial sebaceous cyst on my throat
:( like remnmants of a pimple i had i think. gross. haha. sian. thing is ive got to go to a polyclinic to get a referral to have it removed. SIGH. and that means $$$. and time of course.

oh yah and my appointment was at 8.30am. so that means i had to wake up at the gawd-forsaken hour of like 6 plus. zzz

so following my meet-the-doctor session i decided to make a visit to another doctor at the friendly dentist clinic below UHC for the following reasons 1) i had time to burn and 2) i haven visited the dentist since what sec4 or smt. thats like nearly half a decade or so. haha. fortunately the dentist was able to nip a budding tooth decay in the crown. but there goes $50 ~~ oh wells the price one has to pay for a killer smile :)

and how did i spend my past 2 hrs? other than fb-ing (DUH) erm well i wanted to read the papers but looks like the librarians are not done with it yet so after checkin my mail and stuff, i went youtubing. and i came across this spastic hilarious series of videos that are simply LOL. so pls pls dun watch this in the library

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anyway, on a more serious note, im rather erm PERPLEXED (vocab of the day:) for my plans for the hols starting from next week cause i signed up for this medicine-related project but its like unconfirmed so i dun know whether i should just go ahead and apply for a job. and im planning to work for june only cause i plan to leave july for driving. so...

ARGH. and money is going to be tight cause GSS IS COMING!!! haha

ok gotta have my lunch now and maybe a nap so till the next post!

ss's guide to Universal Studios

2010-05-24T22:40:00.001-07:00

so i went to universal studios last fri and gawd it was HOT. as if i was in a desert like the following picture

ok maybe thats an exaggeration but look at the almost clear blue sky, nice to look at but not nice to be under.

so tip #1 WEAR A CAP and advisable to wear light clothings i.e not jeans. esp for guys cause you dun want your sperm count to go south.

tip#2 do not bring along any bags or carry-on objects. cause if you are planning to board any high level roller coaster rides obviously you would not be allowed to carry them along with you otherwise there will be UFOs whizzing off in all directions in universal studios. though there are lockers available for you to deposit your stuff, its free for 30 mins but after that you get slapped with $3 dollars and $2 for every subsequent 20mins. very likely to hit at least 5 bucks if you are planning to take the super popular rides.

and if you are a cheapskate person like me who brings along a water botle everywhere he goes to save on drinks money, then do not fret! there are water coolers available within the themepark! :)

of course, if you are going with girls or humchi guys then i suppose you may pass your belongings to them for safekeeping

talking about $, the entrance ticket for non-peak (weekdays) and peak is $66 and $72 respectively. and they come with a $5 retail voucher and $10 meal voucher! (no refunds of change though...)

so moving on to tip#3, GO DURING WEEKDAYS. one its cheaper and most importantly, less people around which translate into not rotting when waiting for the rides.

hmm that should be it for THE 'ss's guide to Universal Studios'.

another list

2010-05-19T01:52:00.000-07:00

*CONTENTED SIGH*

yesterday marked the end of my first academic year in UNI!!! woohoo. (assuming i dun get called back for subs, which i thiiiiink shouldn happen since i though all the papers were ok :)

anyway, maybe some reflections on my first year in med sch. lets see... it started in aug 2009 and ended yesterday which is 18th may annnnd that makes it slightly less than 10 month. and once again, it flew past and before you (or maybe its just me) knew it, it was my birthday ( BIG TWO ZERO), and pros is FINALLY over. (you know speaking of years, my life revolves around 3 years within a year. there is the greek year, and then the lunar year ($) and finally academic year. and ive finally managed to get over and done with 2009 haha)

but before that, i managed to par down several of my 2010 resolutions! lets seeee...
1. i finally ascended to the ranks of the slightly above average-rs for ca3!!!! haha hopefully that will be the case for my overall results :) you know, ss does have a dream of become a dean's list-er too, but haha, its just a dream i suppose...

2. managed to take and pass his BTT! however its as if ive reached a barrier cause i dun really have the erm motivation to proceed with the next step of learning how to drive. maybe its because im busy trying to catch up with life, you know...watchin big band theory and stuff

3. income has finally started to trickle in cause i have got tuition assignments!! $$ haha hopefully it will continue to remain as a viable and stable income source for the next few years

hmm anything else? let me refer to my 2010 resolution list. for the benefit of you readers, i shall paste it here

1. Learn Driving (PHASE I CHECK)
2. Upgrade from a Below-Average Medical student to an Average-Medical-Student. yes im being extremely practical by not saying Above-Average cause its seriously going to spell the end of my already non-existent social life (CHECK FOR CA3)
3. watch nice movies! first on the list is the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. followed by Percy Jackson and the Olympians (MAGIC!), Valentines Day (LOVE!!!!!), Up in the Air (GEORGE CLOONEY!!!), Wall Street 2 ($$$$$$) (which reminds me i haven watched iron man 2 yet :(
4. Acquire tuitees (to supplement my lifestyle needs, or wants) [CHECK X2]
5. Get a new pair of shoes [CHECK]
6. Get a new pair of specs [ hmm ive been thinkin of getting contacts haha cause i realised that ive soulful eyes. LOL. ]
7. Get MY EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLARS 50 Years of Public Housing 1/4 OZ Fine Gold Proof Coin (may need to sacrifice my new shoes and specs) [check. my bank account statement can prove that]
8. Blog once a month starting from now :) [so far so good :) ]

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now i shall move on to my close-to-3-months holiday list!

(oh cool i just performed a double-kill on 2 mosquitoes :)... after they stung me 3 times)

1. pack and tidy up my study materials which are lying here there and everywhere

2. go for a evening jog finally! haha and its quite a nice weather for joggin cause it just drizzled so its all cool and cooler

3. WATCH IRON MAN 2

4. catch up with friends ( mahjong!)

5. may be going universal studios

6. medical conference from the 26th- 29th may

7. hopefully get a dermatology research attachment

8. proceed with learning driving (?)

9. watch big bang theory!!! ( i love sheldon!!! haha)

ok im getting a little nauseauted. probably because im not used to using the computer beyond an hour... haha

ok was planning to perform activity number 9 but my sis has to use the com so nvm, got 2+ months to do it so till the next post! :)

where art thou ss?

2010-05-07T00:38:00.001-07:00

Study corner Satu: ss can be found here after midnight when his mum (and himself) are done watching channel 8's tawian tornado.
ss can be also be found here takin a well deserved nap in the mid-day

Study corner Dua: ss can be found here after studying at study corner satu, just before he takes his well deserved sleep on his bed just beside the table.
this corner also serves as a repository for ss's sister and his own notes

Study corner Tiga: ss can be found studying here ( computer table) after his lunch.
requires tiger balm to be on standby due to suspected mosquito breeding site in the vicinity

Study Corner Empat: ss can be found here when
i) he cannot tahan the stupid mosquitoes at corner tiga and is distracted as he's trying to squash that $#@%$@#
ii) between 10-11pm after watching new beginning on channel 8 and before watching taiwan tornado

tick tock.

SHUTTER ISLAND!! (take 2)

2010-04-23T06:57:00.000-07:00

was planning to blog abt other stuff but just watched above mentioned movie and i just SOOOO got to blog abt it. its like the best 'adult' movie (i.e. thought provoking. come to think abt it, such movies are rather rare) [*i think what i was trying to say was its a Proper Thriller. like developments that cant be seen yards ahead + stunned whenever you turn a corner] i have seen since what the last martin scorsese (the aviator) or smt. [*actually on hindsight its the best thriller movie if youre talkin abt genre. the last thriller that was that thrilling would be erm the village by m.night shamalyan] the twist (yes theres a twist if you can manage to believe its a twist) is like awesomely mindblowing. haha. its nothing short of a paradigm shift. i was like youve got to be shitting me. you will get what im trying to say when you watch it so...

YOU should catch it.

and its scary too. not cheap trick scary but atas masterful awesome scary. 'shivers'

shant reveal much partly because
i)distracted by 2 tv blaring at the background
ii)got to finish lipids otherwise i will be lagging behind my schedule, which is not advisable considering its only day 3 of revision and it will be setting a bad precedent for the days ahead not to mention the backlog.
iii) dun want to spoil the surprise

but i shall part with this
'live as a monster or die as a good man'
only those who watched the movie will understand what its abt. took me quite long to figure it out though haha

and perhaps a hint at whats the twist abt...
doesnt leo look a tad unhinged?

[*PS: this post is actually an editted updated version (hence take 2!) that i thought of when i was bathing. haha. partly because i thought that the first post din really manage to convey what i really thought of the film (i.e 'adult' instead of 'proper thriller') cause of the first 2 reasons why i din reveal too much. erm yah so hope its better! haha)

thank God for good friday/ I GOT MY HP CABLE!/ shit got to sleep early

2010-04-04T08:49:00.000-07:00

haha epic long title cause yeah, got a lot of things to talk abt but then again got to rush cause its late and i got to sleep early! for once.

so, thank God for good friday. i dun know whether this applies to everyone but as a sch going child or teen or adult, a four day work week is such a.... how do i convey the feeling? liberation? haha cause its like normally the weekend is sooo short to properly relax esp when a major exam is like just slightly a month away and one not only has got to revise what was taught the previous week but also revise for the major exam. siao eh, uni or at least i dun know whether its limited to medicine but its just mad lah. each day i worry and fret over what to study. and even more when i slack off and things just start to pile up and i start freakin out.

so going back to good friday, its just like one has got an extension and its just magical. like you got an extra free day. haha. like fri felt like sat and sat felt like sun but in fact fri is fri and so forth. so i got to do like so much stuff during the long weekend. unfortunately still the same amt of work that i would have done if it was a 2 day weekend. but i shant complain:)

cause i watched 4 movies ( confessions of a shopaholic- book was better; the men who stare at goats - hmmm curious, but in a grown up weird american way; the informant!- ok? haha cant really comment cause was sleep-deprived and was distracted by mahjong playing in the background; and CLASH OF THE TITANS 3D- haha my first 3d experience though the 3d could have been better. the 3d scenes were all like those calefare moments i.e. coin bouncing on the water's surface and perseus/sam on a boat looking to the horizon. but ok lah, slightly above average? 3/5 popcorns haha)

went with my mom to chinatown for yum yum yong tau hoo and stocked up on what 3 months worth of toiletries? haha

went to friends house for overnight boardgame and mahjong session

rearranged my 'wardrobe'

yeah thats basically 98% of my clothes haha but one notices that its rather packed to the brim. thought to throwing away some shirts but just cant bear to do it haha

and just spent an hour in the bathroom scrubbing the grim and bacteria colonies of the walls.

yup fruitful weekend huh.

then again i had a lousy sat cause i dun know whether its because of my lack of sleep or some minor hormonal imbalance or sch, and i was like in a black black sulky beachy mood. urg.

and so i spammed anat, hmm have to qualify, spent most of my revision on anatomy limited to lower limb and im just so sian of anat now. SIGH.

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and moving on to part ii. YEAH! i got a cable for my hp finally. those sucker nokia ppl sell hp with storage capability i.e. with memory card but never give cable. morons man. its like ...hmm let me think of a very apt analogy. getting a portable hard drive but without the bloody cable!

well i borrowed one from kexin till i had to return it cause he needed it and yeah i felt so how do i put it erm. constipated? haha cause i cant update songs and i cant upload cool pics that i took with the phone!

took it when i went joggin on thurs

and when i was on my way to mrt to catch clash of titans.

i think i may have said this before but sometimes everyone should just detach themselves from their busy busy lives and stop to absorb their surroundings. and be awed by whats around them.

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and yes its mon tomorrow so night!

and its been dark and cloudy

2010-03-20T05:59:00.000-07:00

after the 36 hours of fine weather proclaimed by my last post. haha. thats scary. and its very very cold brr.

hmm quite an eventful week as a matter in fact. bascially cause of 2 events. one, my very first experience with food poisoning haha. and two, i finally applied for BTT!

yeah so had food poisoning on like tues night. me thinks it might be the 1 plus month old kueh lapis from indonesia. hmm at first i thought it might be the dinner i had but i shared the same dinner with my mom and sis and they werent as chummy with the loo as i was the following morning so must be the kueh lapis liao loh. yeah so had like weird throbbing sensation in my epigastric region at midnight and if im not wrong, i was trying to revise the blood vessels of our neck. (haha sorry was showing off with my medical terminology. basically the epigastric region is where our stomach lies.... i think. haha) so it got progressively stomach-wrenching and i couldnt really force myself to study.

so i went to bed and unfortunately it din help one bit and i was basically wondering if i was carrying a demon's child or smt. worse thing was couldnt sleep for the entire morning till sch and after like what 5 dates with my toilet bowl, i guess i literally shitted out the shit in my bowels and i was as bent as a crooked arrow. but no choice lah still had to go sch since my sch fees are so damn bloody ex. fortunately i think i might have cleansed the entire contents in my stomach so din soil myself throughout the day. then again i was very nua or jelly-like for the rest of the day and just had green bean soup for lunch

me thinks i might have blabbed too much about a food poisoning incident but im not going to give a damn since its my damn blog so YEAH! haha

ok shall try to round it up. erm felt feverish so ate panadol and slept the whole wed away. done.

hmmm actually i think im quite lucky cause this food poisoning incident seems quite mild esp since i just had stomach pain for like 12 hours and recovered within 24hrs.

but that doesnt mean im lucky to have food poisoning. haha so moral of the story, dun be garang and eat food that has overextended its residence in the fridge

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moving on to BTT. yeah actually was planning to apply it on wed but tio food poisoning so had to postpone it to thurs. but it rained like siao on thurs too so tried on fri after sch.

it drizzled but i braved the drizzle and went ahead to book my BTT. finally. haha but timing quite screwed cause its like 1 week before pros so hopefully it will turn out just fine. not so much my BTT but my pros. haha

fine weather for the next 36 hrs

2010-03-12T19:31:00.000-08:00

yeah courtesy of my humble 2.0 megapix handphone camera. sometimes you just got to lift your head to the sky and you might be surprised with whats up there :)

anyway, just had my ca3 yesterday and no further comments abt it. haha

yup so basically from the end of my test to sun night will be the most carefree period till like may 18th cause of sch and the extremely herculean task of mugging for the final year 1 exam. sigh. studying for ca is already that bad and i cant imagine how bad it will be for pros. what have i gotten myself into? haha not to mention the coming years ahead! sian take one step at a time loh what to do, i signed my life away the moment i signed the medicine bond. weak laughter

so basically after sun night it will be like the begining of a perfect storm. or dark clouds brewing in the horizon like

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so was reviewing my what do you call them...ah resolutions and quite satisfied with my progress so far

1. Learn Driving

dun think this is going to happen soon. with car prices, basically coe hitting record prices. sigh not my priority lah

2. Upgrade from a Below-Average Medical student to an Average-Medical-Student. yes im being extremely practical by not saying Above-Average cause its seriously going to spell the end of my already non-existent social life

THIS is my priority which unfortunately doesnt seem so hopeful after yesterday's paper (SIGH)

3. watch nice movies! first on the list is the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. followed by Percy Jackson and the Olympians (MAGIC!), Valentines Day (LOVE!!!!!), Up in the Air (GEORGE CLOONEY!!!), Wall Street 2 ($$$$$$)

forgot to add alice in wonderland too! but yeah, caught ALL except for wall street which is not out yet. and ALICE was just magical! everyone should watch it!

4. Acquire tuitees (to supplement my lifestyle needs, or wants)

going to send in my application like real soon. maybe after this. haha especially since my sole source of income has dried up

5. Get a new pair of shoes
done refer to previous post

6. Get a new pair of specs

on indefinite hold till my financial status is more rosy

7. Get MY EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLARS 50 Years of Public Housing 1/4 OZ Fine Gold Proof Coin (may need to sacrifice my new shoes and specs)

check

8. Blog once a month starting from now :)

check check :))

SO. going back to how my sole source of income has been terminated just thought i might reminscence abt my first official job (NS no count). bascially it involved working at the body worlds exhibition as an exhibition guide and yeah, pay's good ($8.5/hr) nice co-workers, and not too shiong other than the fact that it is rather boring standing around trying to act invisible. haha no lah, erm we try to help others to find their way to the toilets/exits and stop ppl from taking photos too :)

yeah earned quite a fair bit for like what 4+ months of part time like slightly less than 3k? not THAT much but its enough lah better than zero right. haha and unfortunately with nearly half my earnings going to my mom and the rest squandered, (ok maybe not squandered, surely i deserve some occasional pampering for my effort haha) there doesnt seem to be a positive impact on my bank account.

anyway, $ isnt everything. only like 80% of everything. there's still the 20% haha.

the ppl and friends i have met! yeah, friends that help to make time pass faster and funner with all the racist jokes and gossips and teasing and plain slacking. haha

thats the thing abt life, that everyone has to go on their own separate paths eventually and yeah want to wish everyone the best! :)

not to forget abt the highlight of my 'professional' temporary career

(thats me in black and THE health minister, Mr Khaw in red haha)

think thats abt it. ss signing out!

no shit

2010-03-07T20:59:00.000-08:00

avatar got owned by the hurt locker.

so that means im wrong for best picture

im in shock

THE OSCARS

2010-03-07T09:08:00.001-08:00

ok just a little quick post on who i think will win the big awards

best supporting actress: mo'nique from precious. erm yeah, i dun think anyone would know who im refereing to so lets move on to more interesting awards....

drun roll.....

best supporting actor:
christopher waltz from inglorious basterds. (nice one! you should watch it)

best actor:
jeff bridges from crazy heart (hmmm, quite obscure too but yeah)

best actress:
hmmm. tricky maybe be meryl streep for julia and julia OR sandra bullocks for the blindside (me thinks its the latter.) and oh by the way, sandra also won the razzies last night. oscars equivalent for sucky films. cool eh

best director:
james cameron's ex for the hurt locker. and if she wins, she will be the first female director to win one for best director...so you go girl! smach through that glass ceiling that is supressing all the womenkind! haha

and best film:
avatar simply because it cost $500 million and earned like siao.

but i watch up in the air and its quite good too. so maybe. like 1% haha

....i cant think of anything else to type cause my brain is not cooperating.

night!

another one down!

2010-02-27T06:23:00.000-08:00

one more resolution down cause i bought a new pair for shoes! adidas somemore seh. haha. here's a sneak peek at my chio shoes :)

i spent 1 hr shopping for 'the one' k. haha. but its white so looks like my trusty faded blue adidas shoe is still going to be on active duty

ok titanic on's now so. haha. erm lets do it fast fast.

well this past week was intense and i suppose its only going to get more intense. erm erm and next week will be my last week of work so most probably my next post will be on my first job yup :) good day

crap its thurs...no fri already!

2010-02-18T09:43:00.001-08:00

NOOOOO WHY DID THIS WEEK PASS SO QUICKLY!!! ARGGGGHHH

haha, i believe most NUS students would share the same sentiment. how nus CHEATED us of like 4 days to mug. plus 2 days to get over the holiday spirit thats nearly a week. i.e. proper mugging only resume on fri. sian. and i just got owned yesterday evening in mahjong by my 2 extremely powerful coworkers. PONG PONG BANG and before you know it HU. seriously its like soccer 2 players tag team. and helpless me was just caught right smack in the middle of the crossfire :( lol but i sort of got back at one of them (the host) by breaking the chair i was sitting on. lol. ok but it was seriously not intentional.

lets see, was planning to upload some photos of food i took a while back... let me see.

yummy

anyway, my cny was quite sucky other than yesterday's mahjong trashing, i also got trashed in blackjack on like mon night at my aunts house. well it was actually my bro who got trashed when he was banker but we shared the same capital :( oh wells, mahjong was just chips and our blackjack capital was mom's to be exact so haha. AND i fell sick just before CNY on like last thurs. started with sore throat then flu then cough. my voice still sounds a tad weird but i suppose i can resume bathroom singing today :) hopefully.

yeah quite screwed with being sick and losing not to forget mugging during this cny but who knows, maybe hopefully my time will come soon? like maybe the 10 mil toto draw? haha $$$$

$IGH

hmm. lets see what else can one talk about 2 am in the morning. friday liao leh :( haha erm yeah had dreams for 3 consecutive nights so will it continue?

haha sweet dreams :)

double ouch

2010-01-31T04:46:00.000-08:00

haha cause im watchin casino royale now and you guessed it, its the ball smashin scene *cringes* and for the benefit of the non-bond fans, imagine a pyscho terrorist wielding and swinging a rope with a knotted end towards a naked bond sitted in a chair with the bottom cut out. yes.

OUCH.

and for the second ouch, its more of a sympathy thing for andy murray who lost to the ever stylish federer :) youve got to admit the latter's style...the flick of his hair when he leaps before smashing the tennis ball. *salivates* haha

anyway, i was you know doing my thing at body world which basically means me pacing around the exhibition hall pretending to be an invisible exhibition guide while pondering about life when i thought ' HEY! ITS THE END OF JAN ALREADY! OMG.'

5 steps later ' WAIT A MINUTE, its 2010. TWENTY TEN. its been a year since i graduated from jc. wth thats bloody fast. what happened to my 09 man?'

haha, and yes to you ppl who haven realised it yet, its really 2010 with 1/12 of the new year already signing out.

and so i continued to think ' i need to have a goal man! gosh im goin to be twenty soon and thats like rather old considering that im still studying and not raking in big bucks.' and thats a rather sore point for me especially when my savings is the lowest among my siblings. yes i know you cant believe it too considerin how MISER i am. i couldnt believe it either, till i remembered the numerous overseas trips and my exorbitant coin collecting hobby (speakin of which i am contemplating... correction, make that pretty confirmed, that im going to acquire another $800.00 coin)

ah i digress. so i continued to ponder....

' i should come up with a 2010 resolution! ' and yes, i do realise that its pretty late in the year to come up with things i plan to do but i was never a traditionalist to begin with so what the heck! haha

so here goes GSS RESOLUTIONS FOR 2010

1. Learn Driving
2. Upgrade from a Below-Average Medical student to an Average-Medical-Student. yes im being extremely practical by not saying Above-Average cause its seriously going to spell the end of my already non-existent social life
3. watch nice movies! first on the list is the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. followed by Percy Jackson and the Olympians (MAGIC!), Valentines Day (LOVE!!!!!), Up in the Air (GEORGE CLOONEY!!!), Wall Street 2 ($$$$$$)
4. Acquire tuitees (to supplement my lifestyle needs, or wants)
5. Get a new pair of shoes
6. Get a new pair of specs
7. Get MY EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLARS 50 Years of Public Housing 1/4 OZ Fine Gold Proof Coin (may need to sacrifice my new shoes and specs)
8. Blog once a month starting from now :)

oh god just saw a valentines day trailer on tv. its a sign. haha

anyway, was quite emo yesterday after watching the time travelers wife which was so 2009 but thats not the point. i mean it just makes me wonder if such a Love exists whereby a woman will wait for her other half even though he may never appear? sigh. wondering constantly day and night when will she see the one she loves if she ever sees him again.

i might just go mad with longing. if i ever experience the Ideal Love that is, which may tend to be different from the practical world.

ah i feel so satisfied writing this post :) haha hopefully it may jumpstart my creative juices for my ethics tutorial!

*neckache from twisting to watch bond while bloggin*

oh my

2009-12-21T02:41:00.000-08:00

it has been more than 2 months since i last posted!gosh how time flies!

i bet that some 504 ppl out there is sure to agree with me esp since they just ascended to the godly status of 2 LT. sigh, sort of envious of them and feeling ..i dun know how to describe it.. regret? or longing? yeah, just left ocs halfway and frankly speaking, i sort of miss the times and the ppl, the friends. not so sure abt "the friends" bit though, since i sort of abandoned them for civilian life. SIGH

hmmm. once again, a year is ending. this must be the "FAstest" year ever! i wonder if years passes faster as one ages. not that its a bad thing, but im sure damn comfortable with the current speed now. so pls 2010, dun go too fast k? i still want to enjoy my teenage life.

another hmmmmm. well, im sort of working part time now at bodyworlds as an exhbition guild and im sort of satisfied with it. i guess. haha, the pay's good, dun need to work like siao, although its pretty much standing throughout. and i guess its far better than the alternative of stoning at home waiting for friends to call me out. which is erm, rather dismal at the moment :(

lonely pathetic sad me. oh wells, i suppose i got my story books to accompany me... haha

ok. gtg. yep, do housework again! yay! haha. merry christmas!

for once i cant think of anything to do

2009-10-02T07:05:00.000-07:00

hello, everyboday!!! haha, its been such a long long time since i last blogged huh! well, its just that life's been so filled with stuff, like mugging needless to say, sleeping, muggin again, and going out with sec friends (swenson's ice cream buffet!!! overnight board game sessions!! ) and partly because i dun really use the computer for extended periods of time. like my bros, yes both of them, need to like print their notes almost everyday! so obviously with my lowly status within the family, i have to give way to them. but i suppose absence makes the heart grows fonder yeah???

hmmm. so whats there to talk abt? well one things for sure, time sure passes damn quickly! like its already nearly 2 months since school started and thats EIGHT weeks mind you! just ZOOOOOOM passed. im not saying its a bad thing though cause when time passes fast it means that im having a hell of a time! but sometimes i just cant help but pause and think abt the fact that one cant turn back time and its alarming how time just trickle pass so quickly.

i think im startin to alienate myself from those around me with my skewed sense of humour. how? i feel so misunderstood and unappreciated. haha. think i may be going nuts!

at least im happily crazy :)

looks like my sis wants to use the com liao so i guess thats it for now!

this is civilian goh speaking

2009-07-28T01:38:00.000-07:00

hello to you un-suspecting lucky guy/gal who has stumbled upon my blog in hope of catchin up on my exciting life and coming across this post when you least expected it! HA!

ok, thats lame but anyways, its been such another LOOOOONG time since i last blogged. and the reason for today's enthusiasm? me waiting for a movie to load on some website. haha. sorry mates, but i guess im the kinda guy who makes full use of his precious time yeah?

hmmm. then again, i haven been able to blog cause my elder brothers, yes both of them, are extremely free thus as lowest among the brother hierachy, im last in line for using the computer. some sort of a tacit arrangement. most of the time anyways. haha

so, it has been, nearly a month since my rank converted from officer cadet to mr and yeah, slack loh. haha

my first major engagement as a mr would be the medicamp which was rather similar to a vj orientation. but i suppose more "friendly" cause we stayed over at a resort chalet which was quite funky considering the the chalet was a bungalow! not forgetting the "fright night" where i was just helplessly bumbling along wracked with nervous giggles. one could almost pity my female partner. haha

hmmm, after that would be rag. basically sessions to bond with my og and future coursemates whilst doing sai gang or honing our sai gang evasion skills.

sch's starting soon, but not so soon and im entertaining thoughts of skimming through my jc bio notes. hmmmm..

sian loh. haha

is once again waiting...

2009-05-27T04:04:00.001-07:00

for his virus scan to be done before he shuts down (the com) and gets a life. haha

hmm.ok. status update. im having a one week block leave from from army and its.. well, plain.

it started off quite well, when my service term @ OCS ended last thurs with a social event at Marriott hotel. typical prom stuff? haha, there were laughs and all lah, sentimental esp. nice ending to another phase of my NS life. its really been a great time especially when time passes remarkably fast. like zoooommm and its been already close to 5 months! and if i haven been dreaming, that i have really got accepted by med sch, sch will start in soon in a couple of months.

im not really sure if im prepared considerin that studying medicine is apparently like a levels repeated again and again and again....whew. wish me best eh?

anyways, going back to my block leave, spent sunday with my relatives celebrating my father's birthday. quite a cool affair considerin that my father's already reached his big sixty milestone and its seriously very rare for everyone to be together and have a nice and warm family photo taken. so to you ppl out there! dun get too caught up with your own little lives! take notice and care for your parents and siblings yeah? haha

after sunday, excitement pretty much plateaued with me helping out with chores here and there. sigh.

haha, but whats there to complain?! i got leave damnit! better than nothing right?!

and no, my scan is not done yet but ive got nothing much left to say...

so till the next post!

while waiting for the laundry to be done...

2009-05-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

as well as waiting for my free ( AND completely legitimate) latest coldplay album download to be completed, i thought that i might as well update!

by the way, you can find the free coldplay download @ http://lrlrl.coldplay.com/leftright.html. and you are very much welcome :)

hmmm.. well, to start the ball rolling, last week was seriously quite packed with physical activites. ippt (silver finally!!! ), staircase climbing (yes, im not kidding) and 12km route march. but it pretty much marks the end of the major physical exercises so am not really complaining. times sure flies. i have only 1 week left of service term before moving on to the apparently more xiong professional term. so hopefully, my last week will be smooth and pleasant!

i am actually aware that non army personnel (i.e girls) may not really understand or get turned off by Air Force or Army lingo so pls feel free to practice selective reading. haha

returned home in the afternoon today and at this very moment, im actually struggling to keep awake. somehow, army has effectively reprogrammed my biological clock. days of sleeping at 12 plus 1 a.m. during JC certainly seems so distant now....

anyways, went to watch ANGELS AND DEMONS with my mother and sis today!! uber fascinating!! YOU should go and watch it!! there wasnt a moment where it was boring and the pace was just great. plot and everything else too. on a side note, i was quite distracted by the fact that ewan mcgregor no longer has a mole on his forehead :o

and i did some shopping too. finally shao sheng the Miser is willing to part his $$ for 2 sets of clothes! grand total of $87.30. haha. actually, i had to do some shopping cause i have a social night coming up. basically another prom. and i thought wearing the same outfit quite leceh so just spend loh. cant possibly bring my money to my grave right?

yawn.. quite tired le. so i guess thats it for the day. bb~

labour day is coming up!!!

2009-04-25T01:47:00.000-07:00

haha. hi guys!! sorry took so long to update. but serving The Nation aint an easy task mind you :)

i dun know whether this applies to just me or what but time really flies when you are in the army. like how its been nearly 4 months since i enlisted, with 9 weeks of BMT and now into my 6th week in OCS! and life in Air Wing is seriously UP. not going to elaborate due to security concerns but yeah, life's goooood. haha

hmm..seems like this update will be a very short one cause i have a book review to do as well as study for an exam. and i kid you not.

so wish me luck!

what's next?

2009-03-13T00:05:00.001-07:00

enjoyed it myself so thought you guys and gals might enjoy it too.

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well, whats next for me? for starters, BMT just ended 2 days ago (wed) and ive been chilling since. went for buffet at sakura orchard with my bunk mate yesterday and it was quite fun eating and chatting. went to my friend's house subsequently to chill further. lol. however, chilling's gotta tone down someday and thus i have started uni apps. depressing business cause i dun have the necessary info to make informed decisions! hopefully the nus and ntu open houses are going to be darn helpful. yeah, so basically priority #1 is to settle my uni apps ASAP. and scholarships too i guess.

which brings me to my A Level's performance. i daresay i performed well with 6 As and 1 B for General Paper especially when i have only gotten a solitary A for Biology in my JC academic terms. and Es and Ds for Maths and GP. haha. so thanks to Those Up There for taking good care of me. as well as my teachers... and myself too for putting in the effort! hopefully can get into Medicine lah. Dr S S Goh sounds aint bad at all. lol

whats second up on S S's list then? well, im quite apprehensive abt my next progression in NS. be it OCS ( officer) or SISPEC (sergeant) its going to be much much more intense than BMT. apparently BMT is super duper welfare and already i was barely...ok not barely coping lah. but aint thriving either in army, so yeah. hopefully i wun get into a nervous breakdown or smt! but honestly, my BMT experience was definitely an unique one with totally new experiences- real life shooting, living with non-family for extended periods, living in the wild... and i have to admit that i sort of enjoyed it.

so thats pretty much the 2 topmost issues i have to settle in the near future and hopefully both will be done so successfully and nicely. otherwise, i shall make full use of my block leave to chill further!

cheers :)

what

2009-03-13T00:05:00.000-07:00

rain rain rain

2009-02-28T00:08:00.000-08:00

wow, it sure has been pouring rain these days. even in the sunny small island of tekong! which is nice cause we get to have our own admin time which hasnt been the case since i first got enlisted. though kind of a dreary weather with grey skies and chilly winds. lousy for laundry too. i.e. went for 16 km route march yesterday and forgot to bring in my dry laundry! and guess what, it rained. haha. though it was quite cool to have it rain instead of being hot and stuffy, after a while, your clothes gets wet and you start to feel the weight. also, there are puddles of water (splash splash splash) which leads to water entering the boots. thing about waterproof boots is that though water cant get in through the sides, it can get in from the top, and once there, it remains there. so its more weight for you.

haha, what a long paragraph to say that my route march was a pain in the thigh, cause i got abrasion on my inner thigh. hurts like shit yesterday but it sort of got better today so :)

hmm. it has been 7 weeks since i enlisted and truth to be told, it passed relatively fast. and i think its mostly because i have enjoyed it. yes, army is fun. haha. though im not to sure about the rest of my "term" in NS, which may be longer than expected cause im thinking of signing on as a Navy Officer....

and thinking aboiut it, i have a feeling that im gonna be quite sad that everyone is going to go separate ways after another couple of weeks. well, not everyone exactly considering that there are some undesirable characters within the platoon. i must say army really brings the worst out of everyone. not forgeting the best too. i.e. during the route march, there were several instances of ppl helpin those who needed help like carrying the rifles and lifting their bags. unfortunately, weak me cant contribute as i was already struggling during the march. i hate my short legs. i feel like a hobbit cause its like others are walking normally whereas short me is like brisk walking. pathetic. as i was saying earlier army reveals everyone's true colours. esp those who malinger or chao keng. it simply amazes me how ppl can chao keng so elegantly. they should like come up with a manual or smt lah.

sigh. another thing with short legs is that i cant jump high and far. i.e. my standing broad jump (sbj) sucks like hell. its like i can score 5 points for every item (pull-up, shuttle run, sit-up and 2.4km run; no sit and reach by the way) but sbj just robs me of my silver/gold. damn saddening :( so im stuck with a miserly pass

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my sources have told me that a levels results will be out on the coming fri (GASP!)

rush Rush RUSH!

2009-01-27T01:12:00.000-08:00

army was all abt rushing.. and during the CNY break it was alas all abt rushing too. rushing to sleep (real tiring business being a recruit im telling you...there's like at least 2 exercises per day during army.), rushing to do house work, rushing to pack up army stuff, rushing to do army hw (yes, homework. haha) and now rushin to blog and pen, or rather, type down my thoughts before i sail back to sunny pulau tekong (dun get me started on how darn sunny is it there. im like super dark now. haha. skin cancer!!! )

cant believe that 4 days of carefree days are over already. booked out on fri at around 5 and now going back to camp le. nevertheless, quite happy and thankful that i have this break to recouperate considering that i had flu just the day i came back. probably festering in me a few days before i booked out so in a way grateful that i had several days of rest. SLEEP especially! been clocking 10 plus hours of sleep every day. haha

despite the full time sleeping, i must say that this CNY must be the most eventful one considering that i had 1 reunion dinner on new year's eve and 1 reunion (BUFFET!) lunch this afternoon; went to hong bao river, played bowling and pool with my visiting cousins yesterday, etc etc.

alas, the time has come for me to depart from civilisation for another 2 weeks or so.

so wishing everyone a blissful and prosperous Ox New Year!

many cheers! :))

bb 2008. hello 2009!

2008-12-31T06:16:00.001-08:00

what i will miss most in 2008

45 cents bus and mrt rides :(

on a brighter note....

Happy New Year!

2009 is just hours away and i cant help but wonder how will it be.

lets see, there's army and erm.... cant think of anything else. haha

good new year to all then!

mothers are always right

2008-12-03T01:08:00.000-08:00

cause i was thinkin..surely victorians are nice and punctual ppl and that prom will start as per stated at 6.30. but noOO! it din even start at 8pm! the time my mom predicted the prom was going to begin. haha. so always trust what your mom says!

anyway, prom was quite bland with the sub par food served and the lack of entertainment. i was expecting a carnival like affair where everyone will be dining and chatting and laughing happily but it was quite a tamed affair. i think it was just an expensive photo takin session with amateur photographers. haha. but i got the ticket at half price so whats there to complain? haha

lets see what nice photos there are on facebook that can be posted..

woohoo! haha

sadly, none of the guys from my class went but luckily there's still louis and wenshu!

as nazri (aka His Majesty..although he doesnt like to be addressed as such due to his commendable humility and modesty which explains his elavation as King) wisely commented, prom forces ppl to spend money. so total expenditure of this "social gathering" came up to a grand total of $149.20. not that worth it but well, its a once in a lifetime thing! afterall, i din go for ip prom and i tried to "cut costs" as much as possible with the half price ticket thing. haha

yes yes yes. if only they had a budget king award for prom! lol

2 days later, my fun and happening class had an picnic outing at botanic gardens on an afternoon which had a 60% chance of downpour. and after 40% of sunshine, rain showered upon our heads. haha. fortunately, there was a shelter where we could continue our activities but not for long for water soon came meandering upon our mats. not to forget the bloody mosquitoes

was bothered by spilled kaya but otherwise it was a memorable outing! haha

and yes, this time there were other class guys around! haha

life after hols is starting to become monotonous

and i got a freaking electric shock this afternoon which caused my house to blackout! haha. so if i die from internal burns or any other electric shock related injuries, may this be my parting gift to this world!

here i go

2008-11-24T07:09:00.001-08:00

thought that the best way to descibe my journey in vj would be the several overseas trip that were just plain fun and yep, hopefully, i will remember more stuff as i go on!

my first trip to disneyland! haha

yeah. the trip was rather fun and i think this pretty much summarises my first year in vj. we even had table groupings! the most fun one was the group with daniel olivia beatrice and thana! haha. hilarious sh*t! hmm. was that the first year or second year? haha

i think i have said it before, but no harm saying it again. that its truly a wonder that i was accepted into vip considering that i dun think that im THAT smart like tian wei or darren esp when i got my first A for jc in prelims for bio. barely scrapped an A somemore. what a disgrace. haha. truly hope that this situation will improve seven fold for the A's! i have secured 2 As for PW and Chinese that's a start! haha

here i go! part 2

2008-11-23T23:44:00.000-08:00

as for my 2nd year in vj, when i was ip2...hmm, quite a subdued affair with nothing exciting happening except for my research project and 2 overseas trips. haha. so maybe not that subdued after all.

research project was quite intense with me making my way to ntu which was at the other side of the island for i dun know..between 50 to 80 times? very tiring lah, but fortunately managed to earn a bronze award in the subsequent ssef. got some cash and voucher and a plastic trophy. not forgetting the valuable experience! haha. got to know my research buddies as well as my mentor and yep, we are in touch occasionally so that's good!

went to silicon valley, usa during the june hols with some of my v14 mates. daniel subra henry jonathan ganesh and somemore i think. haha

of course, my second trip to disneyland!

then made a second trip to hk and china during the nov/dec holiday. and i saw snow for the first time!

ok. going back to my time in vj. hmm. i suppose this year marked the end of sec 4 and was in a way, quite meaningful cause it meant meeting new ppl and doing new stuff in jc and this was quite the case for the next 2 years with a new class and having new members in swimming and all

the first 2 years in vj was thus the most carefree period in my life with not much tests and more fun fun projects and helmsman and all the enrichment stuff. haha. compared to the latter batch, i can say that im glad that i was the pioneer batch of ip students.

on a solemn note, several ip teachers also left like Mr Koh Miss Low Mrs Jay Mr Chew Mr Yang and later on Miss Toh and Mr D Ang and yeah, it was never the same again? not for worse lah, but the feeling is different. haha. so here's thanks to all the above teachers as well as Mr Teo and Mr Boy!

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looking back 4 years on, i can only say that choosing to enter vip is one of the best decisions i have made in my life so far and i can still remember when i asked my father if i should join this programme. haha. great environment and great ppl! friends and teachers alike!

here i go! part 3

2008-11-23T18:42:00.000-08:00

i must say this year must be the 2nd most packed year out of the 4 years (4th year being the most packed but just slightly ahead of 2007)

overview of what i did.

i) project work. contrary to what most ppl think, i thought that it was very enjoyable and i think that it was mainly because of my group members xian zheng amanda xin hui and olivia. and of course, our project on animation! i feel that we truly deserve our A! haha.

ii) and then there was also the 2 overseas trip!

went vietnam for econs trip where i got cheap adidas shirts. fake of course. haha

nice lah, considering that its darn cheap. i cant even find ways to use finish the money i brought. i brought like 300 worth of sing dollar? haha

and of course, my second trip to japan! for free! expenses not included though but what more can i ask for? haha. spent like about 300 + sing dollars. yes yes yes, i very budget i know. lol

quite nice to meet more ppl from vj although we dun really keep in touch now... haha. but i suppose thats life

fantastic scenery and pleasant weather!

i dun think i took this photo. haha

haha. snorezzzz. so much things to do so little time! somewhat apt to describe my 3rd year in vj

here i go! part 4

2008-11-23T08:01:00.000-08:00

haha. after some screening, i finally found a photo that was the least revealing so this is it!

this year was the most erm intense of the 4 years in vj with me juggling with swimming and a levels and im quite glad with my results for the former... hopefully more glad for the latter! haha.

i guess the above pic pretty much describes this period which though intense was very rewarding and extremely enjoyable!

so, this post will be my thanks to vj swim team for the work they have put through and how well they tolerated my dictatorship! lol. we sure had loads of laughs and at the same time, im kinda glad that everyone was (somewhat) serious towards the competition period and im very proud of everyone!

(oops, couldnt find any nice photos of the team so... looks like we have to make do with my photo only :)

ah. found one on facebook so here is it!)

shows how loved i am doesnt it? haha

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hmm.. a pity about the final 2 years was that my class wasnt as hip and happening as my ip class, but i guess that cant be helped, you either have "it" or you dun. not that it was bad or anything, cause it was nice in a way that our class had various cliques which was rather cute. the guys one group and the girls split into ....was it 3 or 4? haha. no class politics or anything of that sort..so it was pretty peaceful and harmonius! haha. though there's onething abt someone who was always at the back! (inside joke) haha

a levels was... fast as in it ended relatively quickly. first week was very saddening with maths and chem and BIO!! grrrr. maths was the same feeling i normally get during ct and prelim which doesnt bode well. i mean, i have consistently gotten E for my maths except for one occasion when i got a D. i think. haha. chem, paper 3 made several mistakes which i hope wun lead to my downfall and BIOLOGY! wah, crushing blow can. first time that i ever left questionS blank! i dun even leave a single question unanswered duing vj paper. can you imagine how devastated i was?!!

what else can i hope for?
THE BELL CURVE EFFECT! haha. hopefully i can make the A grade. i dun ask for a high A or anything as long as i get an A!!!!

so that's that for the a levels.

in all, would like to thank all the teachers that have taught me, Mrs Ang Mrs Cheng Mrs Lee Mr Lee Mrs Ting and the other lecturers as well as my classmates, esp the guy clique and sarah jenny yanni salyonn and the rest! All the Best!

and that im glad that i spent my last year in vj the way i did!

You don't need tuition to be top

2008-11-22T02:31:00.000-08:00

you need brains

that is why i dun understand why the papers keep harping on the fact that ppl dun need tuition to be smart. why would smart ppl have tuition? that would be stupid aint it? haha

ok. im kind of giddy right now and i think that's partly because of fatigue. dun know why but i just dun feel like sleeping these days. maybe im just trying to make full use of the time that's available to me...or there's just simply too many things to do! like reading books (which reminds me that i havent read today's papers), housework (not that im terribly excited abt it. haha), catchin up on movies (just watched da vinci code on axn. maybe that's why im giddy, cause my tv is mounted on the wall and i have to incline my head backwards) etc etc.

so forgive me if i dun make any sense

so. jc officially ended like how many days ago? (refers to calendar) GOOD GAD! just 2 days ago! haha. seems ages ago already.lets see ended on thurs went to watch quantum of solace (reminds myself to talk abt it later in the post) and mahjong. fri or yesterday went to visit research mentor with research groupies. and went for bak kut teh with my relative today. rather eventful i must say. haha.

though i expect things to settle down or become monotonous as the holidays progresses. which is kind of good cause too much aint always too good. haha. moderate moderate moderate!

ok. going back to quantom of solace. expect flashes and bangs and yeah, my theory with regards to the car chase sequence at the start was just a prolonged advert for aston martin. apparently 14 aston martins were wrecked for that segment so i must say, this must be the most expensive advert ever created! haha

i shall attempt to blog about my...erm. memorable time in vj soon so do look out for it! haha. but dun expect too much either cause im not exactly a person who's good with words. so moderate your expectations! haha

GO SARAH!

2008-10-19T23:15:00.000-07:00

haha. she rocks as a person. not so sure whether she will rock as a VP or President of the United States no less. but the world sure needs some laughter these days. haha

bang bang bang. lol

there's still hope!

2008-10-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

haha! finally got a B for maths mock! from an E to a B. although i must say its still quite worrying that i am still not getting an A for maths. must practice more loh. haha. jiayou jiayou jiayou myself!!!!!!

hmmm, speaking about dreams, im getting quite unsettled about the number of dreams i have. if im not mistaken, i dream everynight? and its like several dreams i.e. different stories. haha. maybe i should start taking down the dreams i dream about. however, thing about dreams is that, you dun really remember them after you wake up. lets see if these dreams persist after the A's...

school has ended officially for me today, with the make-up lectures wrapping up today. dun think i will step into vj until the 3rd of Nov itself.

was queueing at the noodles stall for brunch just now and was speaking to the economical bee hoon stall auntie. apparently im still stuck in time 3 years back and look like an ip1 student. but then again, that's not surprising considering that my maturity level is similar to that when i was in ip1. haha.

to sum up simply, the past 3 plus years had been a blast with me making several great and nice friends and also me making a hell of a fool of myself.

will certainly miss it and i shall now address my panic by attempting to start on bio or econs.

not forgeting...

All the Best People! there's only 1 more month of studying before brain degeneration sets in. cheers! :)

a pity about dreams

2008-09-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

is that they do not come true :(

yeah. recalled a dream i had this morning when i was bathing just now. SIGH. come to think of it, its downright depressing. haha

well, turns out shockingly, in my dream that is, i actually scored 71, that's an A mind you, for MATHS! lol. i can still recall that wonderful feeling of immense joy and amazement as well as that immense dull thud that comes along now when i realise that its a dream. period. lol

dreamnt that i scored 38 for my gp essay too. i can imagine guffaws from you readers. sorry lah, not that i can control my dreams right. lol. i suppose dreams are just just. impossible, in real life, thats why they happen when we are sleeping to comfort us, albeit for a very brief period. forgettable too. and in some rare instances when you remember them when you are awake, i.e. bathing, feel extremely downcast about it.

SIGH.

a post on singing

2008-09-19T05:35:00.000-07:00

just watched MAMMA MIA! this afternoon. quite a movie to watch after one's exams. haha. for girls anyway. guys not so sure cause of a rather unbearable quantity of hysterical shrieking. but if a guy (like me) can take it for the first 15 min, he should be fine. haha. and that's not just young girls shrieking. old...no, haha, that's middle age women skrieking too. yeah.

quite an experience hearing a former james bond singing too. haha. all im going to say is that its like seeing someone with constipation on the toilet bowl singing

anyway, talkin abt musicals, i caught the high school musical 3 trailer before the movie and its quite a sight to see a person who's halfway through a basketball match (sweating and breathing heavily mind you) bellowing a love song in the middle of the court. haha. another case of constipation i would say. just a more severe case with lots more sweat involved. but better singing i got to say.

and its very awkward watching movie with your mom and sister when there are intimate scenes involved. haha. not so much MAMMA MIA! but there was an advert for the new levi's button jeans (im not kidding abt the buttons thing) with skin and undies. super awkward. lol

ah. of course, prelims have ended today and i have a feeling that i screwed up econs pretty badly. sigh

to whom it may concern

2008-09-16T23:07:00.000-07:00

i want this!!!

2008-09-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

The world's most expensive pencil
by Arthur Lee, The Business Times|10 September 2008

At $20,800 including GST, this is probably the world's most expensive pencil. So what do you get for all that money?

An elegantly ribbed cedar wood writing instrument with built-in eraser and sharpener, an 18-carat white gold extender and end-piece plus three diamonds on the cap beneath a count's coat-of-arms.

Only 99 of these 'perfect' pencils were produced. And you'll have to be quick to get one. Because two-thirds have been sold. The maker is Graf von Faber-Castell, the premium brand of Faber-Castell, one of the world's oldest industrial companies, now headed by 8th generation family member Count Anton Wolfgang von Faber- Castell, 60.

Faber-Castell was founded in Nuremberg, Germany in 1761. Today, it produces more than 1.8 billion black-lead and colour pencils a year, with facilities in 19 countries.

Count Andreas Graf von Faber-Castell was in town last Friday to showcase the $20,800 pencil. On display alongside it at Elephant & Coral at Wheelock Place are the world's oldest surviving wood-cased pencil, found in the attic of a 17th century house after remaining unnoticed for three centuries, and the world's smallest pencil.

Count Andreas told The Business Times that Faber-Castell's pencils are not just pencils - they are an outlet for creativity.

As he put it, sending a greeting by e-mail will never be as nice as a handwritten note on a greeting card.

This article was first published in The Business Times on Sep 8, 2008.

This is Shao Sheng reporting back from

2008-09-01T04:19:00.000-07:00

i know i said i would be on a holiday, but in actual fact, i was engaged in an epic battle. one of many ones in the near future. and i have risked my life to report back, so as to speak, cause if i screw up this war, my future would be in tatters. so to whoever out there who's on my side, keep it up!

chiong AHHHHHHH!!!!
*shao sheng plounges back into the heat of the battle..... furious tapping of calculator and overheated brain...*

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stairway to heaven is back on channel u!!!

shao sheng away on holiday from Life

2008-08-19T01:33:00.001-07:00

if he had one to speak of in the first place

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and here's a parting gift from me

some foul language though

otherwise, enjoy! :)

shao sheng does not feel the love

2008-08-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

where is the love??!!!

why isnt there any tags of encouragements??? :(

these are dark dark times....

except for one comfort :)

shao sheng is starting his engine...

2008-08-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

but there's not enough fuel!! oh gawdddddd!!!

why cant i just study properly???? i have a serious attention problem. short attention span. very.

im

so

dead

lets just hope fuel prices will fall more so i will have fuel to fuel my engines. metophorically of course.

its just a matter of finding out what and how and when will the "fuel price fall"

help anyone?

the dark knight

2008-07-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

here's an interesting bit on the latest batman movie. its the first batman movie without the word batman in it. *OOOOOH*

haha.

anyway, i think its worth the money...if its a student's price of 6 dollars. 9.50 maybe not. above average for me...though quite the value for money considerin that it runs for 2.5 hours. the most intense hours so far for me in the cinema. its very condensed in the sense that so many things are happening, and it isnt exactly a very simple movie. lots of cheemness involve. at least for me. haha.

joker...is overated. i thought rachel dawes acted by maggie gyllenhaal was marvellous. she played the character very well...that's what i think lah. although most (shallow) people din think so just because she wasnt very attractive. katie holmes's pretty but her acting was (below) average in batman begins. haha. not that i have the rights to criticize anyone's acting skills or anything. then again, you never know! hmmmm... oscars may be slightly easier than a nobel prize. lol.

despite saying joker is overated, that does not mean his performance was bad. it was very good lah, just that my expectations were artificially bloated i suppose. haha. its amazing how he can still conduct normal conversation after being slammed against the table on the head. then again, he was slightly mad in the first place, so there's only how mad one can be right? so when i said normal conversation, i meant it by his standards. he looks truely insane in his nurse outfit. lol. to those ppl who have fetish with ppl in nurse uniform, perhaps this can cure you of that fetish

imagine (male) joker in (female) nurse uniform with eh exotic make up and slightly green hair. add in leg hair. lol.

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prelims is nearing. and so is GCE A LEVELS!

THE end of one of the greatest journeys in the glorious life of GSS

2008-07-18T20:36:00.000-07:00

should i turn on the music? i guess not. this post would be one of the most impt in the history of my blog so mustnt be distracted!

sigh. i want to watch batman....

oops. haha

hmmm. THE end of one of the greatest journeys in the glorious life of GSS. where do i start?

what kind of leader am i? someone who's results driven or someone who really wants everyone to enjoy my reign and be happy? which is better? i would think that im the latter cause im simply not capable of motivating everyone to take trainings serious. im simply too soft. i mean, when i say something serious, everyone just laughs...at the worst possible moments like the most serious parts. haha. oh wells. its just not meant to be. looks like i have to stick with being a joker leader. ooohh. JOKER leader. my subconscious me is trying to tell me to watch batman!!

NO! i must resist the temptation.

erm. yah. so yesterday was the end of my reign as THE Benevolent and Supreme Captain of VJC Swim Team and .....

i dun really feel anything special now. maybe a little lighter? cause no more stuff abt swimming to worry about. trainings, smses, money, activities... but yesterday was truly one of the most INTENSE day in my life.

there were seriously (no laughs please) very good candidates running for exco and it was very very disheartening that only 3 can be picked out of 6. quote anthea " can we have all of them in the exco?" ditto me. sigh. what else can i say? sometimes in life, things dun always go your way so i suppose its up to the individual to either just put it behind you and continue to live life to its fullest or to just regret about what happened. however i must say, the new exco has great potential so watch out TJ! haha..

hmmm...lets try to recall this wonderful journey of mine...

ah. too much trouble. lets just skip to the end. haha

well, i got into finals in my individual event for 200m freestyle. haha. as i have said before and will say again, a joke altogether. someone should have caught my face when someone told me i was in the finals. pity. lol. if im not mistaken, no guys swimmers from vj have made it into the finals for their individual event from 2005 till that fateful day. so...IM GOOD. LOL. so the takeaway point would be...to all mere mortals out there who dun have professional competitive training background &/or train devilishly for more than 5 times a week...YOU CAN DO IT! so jiayou k?!

results was mixed. girls got 4th or to make it sound better THIRD runner up while the guys got 7th. felt very pek chek when was writing out the announcement to the sch regarding our performance. oh wells. haha. i guess it cant be helped...cause we all ( i hope) tried our best havent we!?

this year was truly the best times i had in vj swimming and i hope its the same for every swimmer!

i really do!

haha.

on the sidelines

2008-07-13T06:55:00.000-07:00

oh yah, a tag by someone whom i hope i think is the someone i think he is just reminded me of how friendship that is forged during times like competition is esp meaningful.

especially when they take the effort to wish you luck during your event and stuff. aint that so rare and quaint? haha.

so just want to say that its nice working and being friends with you jonathan and timothy!

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and also, its freaky to see how competitive someone can be when i myself am so slack. relatively i hope. just makes you wonder if you are really useless or something. like there's this guy who got first in his heat who commented rather vehemently when someone said well done that he sucked cause he din do his personal best. it was so un-real. haha.

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i think i will expand judging from how i no longer exercise regularly and how much i eat. it sure is nice living with a family of 6 cause you get to eat like a variety of food during every meal...for instance, i had fried kway tiao, penang laksa, chicken rice and fish and chips for lunch today, but sometimes i cant help feeling im the household's food waste basket. haha.

not that im whining or anything, with thousands and millions of ppl starving and even dying from hunger.

i think pushing daisies is airing soon...so got to iron my sch uniform!